it's been a year since I got dumped
This time last year, I was crying at the drop of a hat! Now Iâm not! Woohoo. In this year, I have - seen a therapist who thinks I have autism. If I didnât have a whole embarrassing emotional outburst to my ex, I wouldnât have been able to find a pattern of shitty autistic behaviour, and doing so has helped a lot with the self-compassion side of things. - worked on the tolerating uncertainty and fear of abandonment stuff, and having enough going on in my life to the point where I can recognise anxious attachment patterns and redirect formerly prominent schemas - started music lessons - tried meal prepping and group workout classes - leaned on my friends and had lots of fun being silly - watched many great movies (I think this was one of the best outcomes of the relationship besides all the lessons - he made me realise Iâm a movie person, I made him realise he should be a better listener?) - seen some live music - I want to see more - grown into myself a bit more and felt a bit more confident in who I am - realised that Iâm masking a lot of the time socially and thatâs probably why Iâm always exhausted when Iâm not hanging around super close people re: dating, it would be nice to try again, but Iâm kind of just hoping that works out in the background if itâs meant to. I donât really want to go on the apps because Iâm not photogenic, even though online communication is easier. Maybe next year, but for now, Iâm going to enjoy my peace.âïž and whoever comes into my life, whether itâs friends, acquaintances or a potential partner, will not take my peace away from me :))
imoldgreeeg@aussie.zone âš3â© âšdaysâ© ago
I washed my hair. Made it through work. Left work on time đ big batch of black beans in the instant pot to get me through lunches for the rest of the week. Fighting a stinking headache but life is feelingâŠbeige today. Not black. I will take that.
just_kitten@aussie.zone âš3â© âšdaysâ© ago
You absolutely smashed it today!! đ That sounds like a win on a lot of fronts, much less to have to handle along the headache. Hope you can hit the hay early and it resolves quickly
imoldgreeeg@aussie.zone âš3â© âšdaysâ© ago
Thanks mate. Iâm out of whack. Good food and sleep will help I am sure
Seagoon_@aussie.zone âš3â© âšdaysâ© ago
hugs
one day at a time đ±
but you are doing more than just that, you are making good positive efforts that make your whole week better đ
Catfish@aussie.zone âš3â© âšdaysâ© ago
Good for you. Just clean hair makes s as huge difference