it's been a year since I got dumped
This time last year, I was crying at the drop of a hat! Now I’m not! Woohoo. In this year, I have - seen a therapist who thinks I have autism. If I didn’t have a whole embarrassing emotional outburst to my ex, I wouldn’t have been able to find a pattern of shitty autistic behaviour, and doing so has helped a lot with the self-compassion side of things. - worked on the tolerating uncertainty and fear of abandonment stuff, and having enough going on in my life to the point where I can recognise anxious attachment patterns and redirect formerly prominent schemas - started music lessons - tried meal prepping and group workout classes - leaned on my friends and had lots of fun being silly - watched many great movies (I think this was one of the best outcomes of the relationship besides all the lessons - he made me realise I’m a movie person, I made him realise he should be a better listener?) - seen some live music - I want to see more - grown into myself a bit more and felt a bit more confident in who I am - realised that I’m masking a lot of the time socially and that’s probably why I’m always exhausted when I’m not hanging around super close people re: dating, it would be nice to try again, but I’m kind of just hoping that works out in the background if it’s meant to. I don’t really want to go on the apps because I’m not photogenic, even though online communication is easier. Maybe next year, but for now, I’m going to enjoy my peace.✌️ and whoever comes into my life, whether it’s friends, acquaintances or a potential partner, will not take my peace away from me :))
imoldgreeeg@aussie.zone 1 year ago
I washed my hair. Made it through work. Left work on time 🎉 big batch of black beans in the instant pot to get me through lunches for the rest of the week. Fighting a stinking headache but life is feeling…beige today. Not black. I will take that.
just_kitten@aussie.zone 1 year ago
You absolutely smashed it today!! 🎉 That sounds like a win on a lot of fronts, much less to have to handle along the headache. Hope you can hit the hay early and it resolves quickly
imoldgreeeg@aussie.zone 1 year ago
Thanks mate. I’m out of whack. Good food and sleep will help I am sure
Seagoon_@aussie.zone 1 year ago
hugs
one day at a time 🐱
but you are doing more than just that, you are making good positive efforts that make your whole week better 🌞
Catfish@aussie.zone 1 year ago
Good for you. Just clean hair makes s as huge difference