LowExperience2368
@LowExperience2368@aussie.zone
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🚵 Tuesday, July 02, 2024 18 hours ago:
We sang all kinds of things! Mostly pop, rock and a hint of musical theatre. Friend also added the Star Spangled Banner and made it scream-o.
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🚵 Tuesday, July 02, 2024 20 hours ago:
Gratitude thread!
Booked in for five hours of karaoke last night. I think in the last hour, I sang one song. But it was really nice to spend time with friends who I can be myself around and have fun with :) they accept my weirdness!
(Is that not the point of friendship? Some people I feel like I have to mask around more than others)
I’m also grateful for reading the responses to these threads! :)
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🐻 Monday, July 01, 2024 1 day ago:
Badum tssssssss
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🐻 Monday, July 01, 2024 1 day ago:
Trampoline dude wanted to go on a date. I did not. We are not talking anymore.
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🐻 Monday, July 01, 2024 1 day ago:
Gratitude thread
I’m grateful for the lollies at work today. Also grateful for the heater and going to see friends later.
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🍵 Sunday, June 30, 2024 2 days ago:
Gratitude thread!
I’m grateful that I cooked my dinner for tonight last night.
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🍜 Saturday, June 29, 2024 3 days ago:
Trampoline park not fun. Awkward with new friend. Wouldn’t be surprised if I never hear from him again lol.
I need sleep.
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🍜 Saturday, June 29, 2024 4 days ago:
Gratitude thread :)
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Saw my friend from Sydney last night. She gave me Jesus soap and put some in our friend’s shower for shits and gigs.
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going to a trampoline park today which hopefully should be fun
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my aunt told me she’s getting a puppy in two weeks and I’m so excited to meet her
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- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🦟 Friday, June 28, 2024 4 days ago:
Gratitude thread!
Today I’m seeing my friend who I haven’t seen in six months (she lives in Sydney) and she’s going to surprise another one of my friends :)
Also I was greeted by the doggo when I woke up this morning, which is a rare occurrence. I believe he sees me as lower than him on the food chain hahaha
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🎼 Thursday, June 27, 2024 5 days ago:
Someone from work messaged me asking how to do something, and I don’t recognise the name? She told me I showed her the process and I don’t recall it at all?
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🎼 Thursday, June 27, 2024 5 days ago:
Gratitude thread :)
Mine:
- psych appt, she gave me an extra 10 minutes because I was crying
- going to guitar trial lesson soon
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🌃 Wednesday, June 26, 2024 6 days ago:
Gratitude thread!
Me today - went to a pasta making class with a couple of family friends. Nonna’s cooking class is better but it was still fun.
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🍲 ☕🍵 Tuesday, June 25, 2024 1 week ago:
Love this, and what a beautiful boy! So handsome 😍
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 🍲 ☕🍵 Tuesday, June 25, 2024 1 week ago:
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 😀🤢😨😢😡 Monday, June 24, 2024 1 week ago:
Beautiful cat <3
What kind of cat is he?
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 😀🤢😨😢😡 Monday, June 24, 2024 1 week ago:
Following a meal plan as part of a fitness challenge. Spent three hours meal prepping today for the next few days. It’s a bit of a headache having to figure out when to cook what, but I really got into a flow state.
Not sure what I’m going to do when uni goes back, but maybe I’ll just spend all day on a Sunday cooking and freeze stuff.
Cooking is actually fun.
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: 👽 Sunday, June 23, 2024 1 week ago:
Yikes. I’m sorry you had to go through that.
- Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: ⬆️⬆️⬇️⬇️⬅️➡️⬅️➡️🅰️🅱️ Edition (Wednesday, June 19, 2024) 1 week ago:
Adulting taken to the next level.
- Comment on Daily discussion thread: 🧣🧤 Monday, June 17, 2024 2 weeks ago:
I had a bunch of weird dreams last night. I thought it was from a lack of REM sleep the night before, but this makes sense!!
- Comment on Daily discussion thread: 🏃🚴🏋️ Friday, June 14, 2024 2 weeks ago:
Absolutely :)
- Comment on Daily discussion thread: 🏃🚴🏋️ Friday, June 14, 2024 2 weeks ago:
Yes, I’m doing a community gardening project and just talk about life with people that I see once a week. It’s helped me to remember I like being outside. Starting music lessons and joined a group fitness studio that’s full of supportive and motivated people.
Getting back into reading and writing and realising that I like spending time alone.
Making space for a social activity with friends / family once a week. Next week I’m doing a cooking class with some friends.
There is lots to look forward to!
- Comment on Daily discussion thread: 🏃🚴🏋️ Friday, June 14, 2024 2 weeks ago:
During my therapy session, the psych suggested I could have autism. She asked me what I think I have. I said I show traits of BPD, but I’m not the one who went to school to diagnose these conditions. I’ve got no idea but I know something is not right. Even though I feel crazy and people perceive me as crazy, that doesn’t mean I am. Sure I’ve felt and said and done some crazy things, but those things don’t define me.
I am praying that therapy works. I don’t want to feel things so deeply anymore and catastrophise. I don’t ever want to have an emotional outburst like I did the week of the breakup again, to the point where I have to beg someone to love me and make them and their people think I’m a complete psycho. I don’t think it was a normal reaction to keep messaging him even though he wasn’t responding. At the same time, I have to forgive myself and vow to never do that again.
- Comment on Daily discussion thread: 🐈⬛🤢⚽ Wednesday, June 12, 2024 2 weeks ago:
Tried the PB&J, kinda slaps. Would consume again!
- Comment on Daily discussion thread: 🐈⬛🤢⚽ Wednesday, June 12, 2024 3 weeks ago:
I’m trying to find things to enjoy and am getting so excited about trying new things in life, like new foods, going to a different uni next year, travelling, working full-time more or less permanently. But at the same time, nothing excites me? It’s strange.
I have a trial drums lesson organised, doing a fitness challenge, planning a social thing once a week, and going to start therapy in a couple of days. All this effort to work on myself just feels a bit futile. I know these things are going to be good for me, yet part of me is not convinced.
Maybe I just have to get through things and then they will become enjoyable. What a weird state to be in.
- Comment on Daily discussion thread: 🛏️🕙🔐😾 🛋️📺 Tuesday, June 11, 2024 3 weeks ago:
Thank you for reminding me that there’s still new things to experience. It gives me hope.
Going to make myself a peanut butter and jam sandwich now :)
- Comment on Daily discussion thread: 🏋️♀️🏋️♂️ Sunday, June 9, 2024 3 weeks ago:
RIP Michael Mosley.
- Comment on Daily discussion thread: 🐈⬛🛍️🐈🪣 Saturday, June 8, 2024 3 weeks ago:
Is this a class you’re going to or just doing art for fun?*
*wrote that before I processed the puts own head through wall comment
- Comment on Daily discussion thread: 🐈⬛🛍️🐈🪣 Saturday, June 8, 2024 3 weeks ago:
If you were him, would you want to know?
- Comment on Daily discussion thread: 🐈⬛🛍️🐈🪣 Saturday, June 8, 2024 3 weeks ago:
I wish that I could’ve talked it out with him. Respected his need for space and realised he was ignoring me because of that, not because he didn’t love me. I wish I could’ve articulated better to him that I was panicking that week. I wish I wasn’t so nasty about it to him in the end and had a civil discussion. I wish he didn’t give up so easily and that he communicated better as well.
I wish I was over it. People have said I should be over it by now. Everytime I go out, I get paranoid that I’ll see him or any of his people. Anyone that looks remotely like him, I get paranoid and think it’s him. I see a car like his or drive through nearby areas and think that I’ll see him. Worrying about it makes it happen twice or some quote along those lines. I want to forget.
The past is in the past. It is what it is. There is nothing I can do to change it, even if I so desperately want to. When the logical part of my brain kicks in, I realise it’s normal to miss someone you cared about a lot, even if you don’t want them back. It just shows you cared. As for the fears, easier said than done, but I need to realise that time will help me get over it. If I do ever see him again, it might be painful, knowing that in some time, he’s going to be building a life with someone that isn’t me. On the flip side, I get to build my own life, and probably a better life than what I would build with him.
I’ve been chatting with an online friend I made recently and even they will tell me that they’re going to be busy and actually reply to my long spiels of shit, even though I have absolutely no expectations about any of that. I didn’t even have to say anything at all. I realise now that I shouldn’t have had to ask for that much reassurance, and even though I think I would lean towards anxiously attached (in relationships), I was dealing with someone who couldn’t give me the time of day, leading to blows to my self-esteem and me overthinking.
- Comment on Daily discussion thread: 🐈⬛🛍️🐈🪣 Saturday, June 8, 2024 3 weeks ago:
Tell us how it goes!