Submitted 2 months ago by insomniacalmond@lemmy.blahaj.zone to [deleted]
Like, how are you, not just as a greeting.
I finally quit drinking in 2025 and I’m doing it for the long run (thanks to the simple method from Allen Carr).
I’ll quit smoking in February as well.
So I feel very good.
Except that I just read that post lemmy.zip/post/30949122 about AI and now I feel beaten and angry.
congrats on 25 days! I stopped drinking too much in 2024 and also feel much better
29 days today*
Thanks, I can’t wait for one month, then one year, then one life.
I have had one of the worst days that I can recall since I left my ex-husband. Woke up early to go to the dentist, they had to numb me which is the worst part IMO. I go home and my mother texts me she’s been in the hospital over 24 hours. I rush to get ready for work and go see her. On my way I hit a crow, it ruins the grill on my VW bug. I get to the hospital and sit with my mom until I have to leave for work. I order a fish sandwich to grab for my dinner and only after getting to my desk at work open my takeout and find they gave me a fried shrimp sandwich instead. My mom lets me know the hospital released her saying they didn’t know what was wrong and prescribed a muscle relaxer. I am a supervisor at work, I had one person call out sick, I’m behind on my duties, and I had a new person start today. Not to mention i started my period last night and was cramping several hours today. the cherry on top was getting the email from credit karma that my score had changed, found it had gone down 30 points because my ex-husband skipped the car payment last month and is now behind 30 days. 🥲 I’m pleading, what have I done to deserve all of this? I hope tomorrow is better, and I hope even more that my mothers health improves.
Hope your mom gets better, sounds like a super shitty day though.
Thank you, very much. I will take any prayers, good vibes, screams into the void, etc. that are available when it comes to my mom.
Sorry about your day. Hope your mom feels better soon and today/tomorrow is much better!
I’m angy and my back hurts.
Stressed as all hell. My job depends on the things Trump is currently trying to block. If that goes, I dunno how to pay the mortgage.
So I’m exhausted, haven’t slept well in a week. Otherwise okay. I’ve got my family and my pets. Friends to play games with.
Pretty down I realized today the reason Star Trek being made today is not aspirational like old trek was. At first I thought it was bad writers not getting star trek but now I understand, the writers can’t write aspirational when they don’t see a future deep in their heart.
Becase deep down we all know we can never make it to that world with peace and a bright future. We will hate and kill each other till the climate wipes us all out and the only life in the solar system is microbes on Mars.
Lets agree to disagree.
As a Trekkie and sci fi writer I want to believe in this beautiful future and I believe it is any sci fi author responsibility to sell positive stories.
If all we write about is dystopia and zombies apocalypse, then people will abandon the fight as there is no future. But if we sell utopian worlds with a trek style economy and future (or something even simpler, like no food shortage anywhere on our planet) then we might influence people to fight for that better future.
The problem with today Star Trek is not the writers but the corporations they work for. Besides, strange new worlds kept that old trek ambitions.
Whereas section 31 is… Well… Let’s say the best part of that film was the “on yo mama 4” joke at the end…
I hope so, I guess really I’m sad cause humanity’s aspirations are just not sellable anymore to a mass market. At this point i have created a plex box ripped all my DVDs ans Blu-rays of old trek and use the Playlist feature with random to create my own trek channel. I know it’s pathetic but it brings me confort.
Or we will pull through it, jettisoning the billionaire capitalist class and learning how to survive and thrive again.
Do I believe it? Fuck no. But it’s not worth discarding the possibility. I’ve spent my life trying to be better. Others can too. And enough people trying to be better might be able to pull through.
Here’s my take. I grew up in the Cold War. I saw no way out. Figured we were all done, with a state of permanent Cold War until an inevitable Hot War that ends it all. And then, very suddenly, in 1989, the Cold War was over. No nuclear explosions, no cities vaporized. Just a new and hopeful future.
And now, here we are today. I see no way out of the climate crisis, and it’s depressing. But I haven’t forgotten the lesson I learned from the Cold War. Just because I can’t see a way out, it doesn’t mean there isn’t, or that there won’t be. I don’t know how, but I’ve seen it before, humanity’s disaster somehow averted out of nowhere. Doesn’t mean we’ll skip climate disaster. Just means that just because you don’t see a way out right now, there still may be a way, and we should all work toward such a future.
Thank you for reading my Ted Talk. Fingers crossed.
Also I wish every day that I’m wrong. I will eat crow with the biggest smile on my face.
The class war, hell nuclear war I can believe we can beat. The climate is where I don’t see a way out. Even if we did an Apollo level effort as a whole world coming together like today. It would not be enough it would be better sure but not enough.
But we are not doing that we have to do the class war / undo fascism and the water wars first before we eventually start to make make a major effort. It’s like recycling they all tell us if I just sort these cardboard boxes I will makes the world a better place as company dumps plastic waste in the water supply. It’s diminishing results and that equals not enough.
I think maybe only Discovery and Picard are like that? The Lower Decks, Prodigy and Strange New Worlds feel closer to Star Trek. And there’s The Orville too, though the comedy isn’t great and.it takes a bit to tone it down.
Yeah the Orville is great season 2 is the best with season 3 being a close second.
I think part of it is also that Star Trek is hampered by its own branding. No network would want to risk their cash cow by having them be controversial, so they’ll keep it safe.
I have quite a hard time envisioning any new Star Trek nearly getting the show taken off of the air by pushing boundaries like the original Star Trek did.
My lease ends today and I’ve had two apartments reject my application. So I’m going to be sleeping in my car with my cats tonight. It’s all pretty surreal. It really can happen to anyone.
I hope you find a place soon, sending hugs and good vibes your way
Burying myself in my work so I don’t burst into tears every other moment. Grieving the sudden loss of a cat that was my universe for her whole fuzzy diabolical life. It’s been a month, but I knew the second I plucked her from the bushes that she was going to destroy me. We had a good eleven years but fuck, man.
My gf and our surviving cat have been great consolation, but violet had no sense of personal space and I find this void in my orbit to be currently…unbearable.
I’m so sorry about your cat! hugs if you need someone to talk to I’m here! Pets can be our best friends and losing a best friend can be such a difficult thing to go through. In those 11 years I’m sure you gave her the best life she could, and she appreciates that dearly. Be sure to give yourself time!
I mean I’m okay for now. The world is burning but none is affecting me yet (that doesn’t make it okay, I’m just trying be real about my situation) and I semi-recently landed a new job where people seem to appreciate me. It looks like we are weirdly very well positioned to weather the current storms and I got an email from management essentially saying “I don’t care who’s in charge, we are still a woke company”. Family is good. We have food, housing, and our health for now. It could be a lot worse. I’m sorry to anyone going through tough times. I wish I could fix it for you.
Not good
Terrible. I’m about to head to the piece of concrete I sleep on at night. Gotta somehow make food and mysteriously appear tomorrow.
Scared
Today was a bastard. Helped a bunch of people but now I’m mentally exhausted. Family has been great and I’ve got a cat sleeping on me. Couldn’t have ended better.
Very stressed, too much on my plate, exhausted.
My anxiety almost acted up again today and my afternoon was kind of sucky during that. But, I got it under control after an hour so I just went back to normal disassociation. Not happy, sad, or anything. Just…nothing. How are you?
I recently made a decision to transfer colleges in order to save my mental health. This meant I’d have to take on a few student loans, but with FAFSA it still felt manageable, and it has significantly improved my life.
However, If financial assistance from the government drops, the chances I will be able to afford school long enough to graduate drop significantly too.
I’m not super jazzed about that; though, I still think the transfer was worth it.
Oh yeah, also, I just recently got medicated for ADHD and it’s what’s let me start to pull my life together, but adderall might get banned so… rip me.
Maybe I’ll take up smoking lol. I mean that as a joke, but what a world when clinically safe, prescribed meds might get banned but literal cancer causing, heavy metal filled, habit forming drugs are going to be legal forever…
Cheers mates, couldn’t have asked for a better seat to watch the final fall of America and possibly the rest of the world. Good luck to all of you who’ll last longer than me.
Ready for the general strike followed by the mass executions of the oligarch class.
Usually takes a couple years for the general public to catch up to where I’m at so biding my time.
Not fucking great.
Nearing a psychotic amount of rage directed at the elites whose sole desire is to grind the rest of use beneath their feet.
Rip and tear, brothers.
Upvoted for asking.
Meh.
I am great, it is the lunar new year and I am celebrating it with my family.
I made vegan fried rice for them. Most asian haven’t had vegan fried rice, because most of hem involves lard and egg. They loved the vegan fried rice so much that my cousin asked my aunt to recreate it tonight.
Under a ton of stress. My job has been cut from budgets so I’m scrambling to find a job before I’m on unemployment. Currently like 60% of a months expenses behind on credit card. Chin JUST above water. Probably will have to pull from my meager savings once or twice to stay afloat. Dealing with some health stuff. Dealing with a shitty employer. Likely means I’ll need to move if I can’t figure it out quickly.
Wrapped up in all my own shit, feeling like a distant boyfriend, son, brother, friend, etc.
Making me fall behind on regular shit like doing dishes/taking out trash/doing laundry. I mean it gets done but not until it’s basically overflowing. I’ve got no bandwidth for it. Living space feeling cluttered guides my free time to being the same shit – scrolling on my phone, escaping to my couch.
Id love another pandemic tbh.
I'm full, have eaten soup and dumplings at my parents in law place and yesterday also so much tasty food.
Past two weeks have been such a roller coaster that I don’t even know. Thankfully I have therapy in the morning so I hope I can get the help I need to get this sorted. Things seem to be happening back to back to back that it feels, at times, that I don’t get a chance to breathe.
Thanks for asking how are you?
The bad thoughts have been successfully buried for now
I had a hackday at work where I experimented a bit with python (I haven’t worked in it professionally before)… I translated a package I maintain into it and I really loathe a lot of the language’s design decisions. It’s still fun to experiment though so I had fun. On the other hand I’m planning to fly into the US next week and I’ve been semi-nervous as a skirt wearing non-conforming man… but now I’m legitimately uncertain if shit like the TSA, CBP and air travel will work with the “Hey, anyone want to resign” memo. If it wasn’t for an important family event I’d absolutely cancel my shit.
FYI I don’t think Python is really suitable for use with a production environment. After you want to start installing other people’s modules, you’ll encounter nightmares without any good solutions, and someone will eventually be extremely unhappy that you decided to use Python (probably within 5-10 years, if not much sooner): chriswarrick.com/…/how-to-improve-python-packagin…
In general, Python seems to be much too closely coupled to the Shell Command Language (which you should also try to use as little as possible): it seems like a lot depends on the environment, so trying to use Python after interacting with a PATH variable or changing the working directory might unexpectedly produce different results. A clear example of this is the idea of “virtual environments”, as using one essentially requires that using Python is managed using the Shell Command Language (see what I expect is the source code for the “activate” and “deactivate” utilities also). “Virtual environments” seem to be extensively used by at least Pipenv. Also, the people managing Python seem much more concerned about maintaining interoperability with C than with making packaging less terrible (this is understandable, but other languages also interact with C while having better packaging systems).
I personally prefer to use The Go Programming Language for more things recently, since packages are very easy to publish and programs are much easier to use with minimal preparation, and I’ve had a much easier time with refactoring and testing, and the huge speed difference is helpful too. Rust also seems to have a quite robust packaging system, but it seems that there are fewer features provided with main utilities (like measuring code coverage). I recall that npm has been relatively easy to use, but nowadays I’d avoid using JavaScript unless I absolutely have to (in the same way I avoid Python or the Shell Command Language).
Regardless of whether you’re interested in Go or Python or some other programming language, I find that it’s easier to keep up with best practices for software engineering by checking documentation for linting tools and fixer programs referenced by ALE: github.com/dense-analysis/ale/…/registry.vim github.com/dense-analysis/ale/tree/…/fixers github.com/dense-analysis/ale/tree/…/ale_linters
These are some other sources that I found to be relevant to Python:
I’ll say that using Python is probably better than using C or C++ (especially since it seems that there are many more published best practices regarding package management for Python than for C), but it’s probably better to choose a different memory-safe programming language if you have a choice at all.
I hate not having money…
Tired already. Four more years of this shit
I can hardly speak to people anymore. Suppressing my gender for 4 years then finally coming out feels awful. I really thought it would be better. I know my family would have issues but fuck. I have so many thoughts in my head but I can’t get more than a word to two before bursting to tears.
Add on top of that the most stressful school schedule I’ve faced yet and the political climate?
I kinda just want to go to sleep and never wake up to go through more of the same pain the next day.
hash@slrpnk.net 2 months ago
I had to put my cat down first thing this morning. I’ve come to terms with it but am distracting myself from the need to go home and clean up his things.
crank0271@lemmy.world 2 months ago
I’m so sorry for your loss. DMs are open if you want to talk or just want someone to listen. I’m told that it gets easier but boy, does it take longer than you might think.
Today@lemmy.world 2 months ago
I’m so sorry. Losing our best friends is incredibly hard.
PorradaVFR@lemmy.world 2 months ago
I’m so sorry. That is such a hard but kind act - to give them peace when the time comes. It’s a gesture of love back for all they give us.
Corno@lemm.ee 2 months ago
Aww I’m so sorry! Losing a pet can be such a difficult time but I’m sure you two made a lot of happy memories together. I’m here if you need someone to talk to! Hugs