During my sobriety I’ve been taking something called suboxone. You could liken it to an opiate blocker, though it does have a degree of a sedative effect.
This becomes unnoticeable after a while.
2 months ago I decided to stop taking it, as it was no longer required.
And so it turns out the mild sedation was not so mild at all. I was emotionally numb to a degree that I had forgotten what either positive or negative really felt like.
It has been tough. I have no desire to return to my old life, I have no cravings.
But coming back into the world full of feelings and a nervous system that’s been half asleep for a decade has been really, really hard. Everything feels so intense, both emotionally and physically.
I love it. But it’s hard work. I’m stuck in this “reconfiguration” stage and I think I’ve mindlessly said “man, today has been a hard day” every day for a few weeks now.
No one I know in real life knows about what’s happening. I just needed to get it out of my system.
Thanks for listening.
/vent
Seagoon_@aussie.zone 1 month ago
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT.
I just passed my Learners . It’s been a while since I’ve driven so I thought I should take the tests and lessons again.
🍻
useless_modern_god@aussie.zone 1 month ago
Image!
Congrats 🥂
Seagoon_@aussie.zone 1 month ago
that is so me 🥺
Duenan@aussie.zone 1 month ago
Yay!!!
Bottom_racer@aussie.zone 1 month ago
ee! well done!
CEOofmyhouse56@aussie.zone 1 month ago
Yay!!! Go you!!! Congrats!!! 🍺
Seagoon_@aussie.zone 1 month ago
Thank you all so much for your kind thoughts. 😄😘
PeelerSheila@aussie.zone 1 month ago
Congratulations on both your successful passing of the test and your cautious attitude. I wish more people on the road were like you!
SpinMeAround@aussie.zone 1 month ago
OMG that’s SO exciting, Goons!!
anotherspringchicken@aussie.zone 1 month ago
Yay! Congrats!
SituationCake@aussie.zone 1 month ago
Congratulations!!