Been unable to sleep and have been washing all the laundry and blankets. Gathering Melbcat’s meds and belongings into her carrier to more easily clean but I’ll be leaving her litterboxes, beds and bowl where they are. I don’t want to look at the empty spaces.
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I’m hoping to get the black cat back to an owner or at least some clarity on next steps to take. I looked fruitlessly on Facebook (without an account) for black cats missing in my area, made a dedicated gmail to put on a paper collar, then made a quick Found poster with that on there. After that who knows.
I guess I’m just numbing out and focusing on the things I can fix because I have no idea how to even process this. I miss my baby girl.
melbaboutown@aussie.zone 3 weeks ago
Hey I’m sorry for the mental breakdown. I’m probably going to delete all of that soon.
I am just really not doing well and not catching a break.
SaneMartigan@aussie.zone 3 weeks ago
No one’s expecting you to do well. Looking in, everything about your current state of mind seems normal. You’ve been hit with a bunch of major negative life impacts and are experiencing the trauma of that.
Seagoon_@aussie.zone 3 weeks ago
so many hugs
you are allowed to be human 😘😘😘🫂🫂🫂
SituationCake@aussie.zone 3 weeks ago
Don’t be sorry. You are going through a really tough time. It’s ok to let sadness happen. (And all the other emotions too, grief is complicated) It’s ok to eat a stack of chocolate or whatever suits your diet that will ease to pain. The only thing that heals grief is time. You did the absolute best for her. It was just her time, and you cared for her so well.
LowExperience2368@aussie.zone 3 weeks ago
We are here for you <3
tomiant@piefed.social 3 weeks ago
I’m rooting for you, buddy!