HalfSalesman
@HalfSalesman@lemmy.world
I don’t have access to this account during weekends.
- Comment on One of the down sides of testosterone 4 hours ago:
I think the implication is fights are more common and as a result are of lower concern. Unclear though.
- Comment on I'm down with this 4 hours ago:
I like cheese but honestly the food/snack aspect of holidays is often the most overblown aspect of any holiday for me.
The only extra calories I accept come in the form of booze.
- Comment on [deleted] 4 days ago:
Usually being attracted to something isn’t something someone can help. I think hentai is a safe outlet. And I’m not interested in introducing chilling effect legislation to censor stuff.
That said, I don’t think hentai is effective in preventing child abuse but I also do not think it increases its prevalence either.
Admittedly my personal usage of porn is my basis: I don’t desire fems less after consuming porn of them being reamed from both ends but that doesn’t mean it also encourages me to go out and rape them. I imagine whether a pedophile abuses a child (or is capable of such) has more to do with whether they have other elements of personality or intellectual/emotional problems.
- Comment on Console market craters as Xbox sales crash 33% to the lowest since launch 25 years ago, PS5 sales drop 25% 6 days ago:
As a PC gamer concerned about game preservation: good. Consoles are just walled hardware fiefdoms.
- Comment on Granted. 2 weeks ago:
Always write up a “wish contract” and wish the contract true, defining your terms. Gives you functionally infinite wishes and minimizes risk of monkey’s paw bullshit.
- Comment on Hard Out There For A Woman 2 weeks ago:
God, I wish I was a moron.
- Comment on Minimum Wage Isn't Living Wage 2 weeks ago:
Preaching to the choir.
- Comment on Broomsticks? What is this? The Dark Ages? 2 weeks ago:
As long as all the surveillance stuff is striped from it and perhaps its running open source software.
- Comment on Gap Year 🧏 2 weeks ago:
Its going to get worse before it gets better. US bond yields are massive, diesel is skyrocketing, AI bubble is teetering. Once we hit some thresholds in the next week or two we’ll have a significant wait before hiring really takes back off…
- Comment on Doof doof 3 weeks ago:
Hur hur, food over socializing amirite guys???
That said, I have always specifically hated clubbing because I don’t care about dancing, I enjoy drinking alcohol and talking to people though. Or at least I used to before becoming so depressed about my friend group that I don’t think if I won the lottery I would care.
- Comment on It's true 4 weeks ago:
Unironically, mostly yes.
- Comment on Just letting everyone know 4 weeks ago:
This has been me for the past 2 months.
- Comment on When the Democrats regain power, their centrist leadership will claim, "We can't do anything because...". Don't be fooled. We need to get the corporate centrists out and real progressives in! 5 weeks ago:
“When” lots of optimism in that word.
- Comment on Ubisoft begin removing Ubisoft Connect from Steam with the new Ubisoft Connect Services 5 weeks ago:
You are either insufferably stupid or this is bait.
- Comment on Anon tries dating apps 2 months ago:
Really long story:
I once knew a girl in high school who I, in a rare moment of boldness while we were away from prying eyes, asked if she would be my girlfriend. She had been my friend for a short while and she fucking chuckled immediately in response, almost instinctively and said “No, sorry.”. My autistic ass did not exactly immediately understand why until I ruminated later.
That said, she seemed to be very friendly with me afterward, like maybe she felt bad and still liked me as a friend… And despite feeling hurt by the way she responded I still hung out with her every once in a while. She eventually got a hot confident boyfriend, because she was also hot. And I kind of started avoiding her because it hurt seeing her with a guy who I felt clearly was better than me, caused me to spiral into self loathing when I saw him. I did not know I was autistic, I just knew I was an infamously weird dork.
Fast forward ~11 years later I stumble into her and she looks like shes a different and much sadder person. I don’t want to body shame but she looked a lot worse and I was no longer attracted to her. She was going on about a recent break up with a guy who she said cheated on her to the bartender.
Now I’m polyamorous, and I legit don’t understand and actively dislike monogamy, but obviously I have a faint idea of how painful being cheated on would feel like, and she seemed super sad and I felt bad for her. After talking with her and catching up a little for like 20 minutes, she drunkenly tried to make out with me.
I got away from her and the internal anger I felt was supremely intense. Like, what the actual fuck, fuck you. You fucking said no and now that you’re washed up and depressed about your ex using me as a fall back.
I cannot describe the feeling of grief flare as well. Like, maybe if she had said yes back then. Maybe I could of had a normal romantic experience as a high schooler instead of being what I was. Sure maybe also wouldn’t have worked out like most relationships, but still. I was a really lonely fucked up high schooler with a completely empty romantic life. Just a void.
I’m doing better now romantically but I was also still having trouble getting any romance at this point in my life even 11 year later. I was still painfully lonely. But the absolute bitterness I felt toward her made even pity for her out the fucking window for me and my desperation for any intimacy dried up instantly in that moment.
Part of me wonders if I should have just gone for it and I was being petty. I don’t know. It just makes me kind of sad to think about.
- Comment on We hate him no matter who he represents. 2 months ago:
I thought he was playing a character before he ran for president in 2016. Like I never watched The Apprentice, but I saw ads for it and I figured he was just playing an exaggerated asshole clown of a boss.
If Trump had run and won as a democrat in 2016, I probably would have intensely disliked him like I did Biden and HRC, but not hated him like I do now because the democratic party would have steered him in very different ways than the GOP has.
I largely now hate his voters and hope they suffer far more than I hate Trump. Nothing but antipathy for them.
- Comment on Metamorsiphilis 4 months ago:
I think I need to read Kafka. I’m increasingly finding that I relate to him a lot.
- Comment on Anon watches redditors talk about bodycount 5 months ago:
I don’t care if shes fucked a lot of dudes. If she’s clean, or only has something I’m prep/vax’d against I’d still be down.
I only take issue with it being presumably a dumb publicity stunt thing. Like, if she fucked that many guys over the course of a few years it’d just mean she had a really high libido and a desire for variety. But that many in one go? That just sounds unpleasant.
- Comment on Ever create an account just to leave a negative review? 5 months ago:
People in comment sections of all porn videos are almost always just ruthless to the guys.
- Comment on Life hack 5 months ago:
I knew a guy who kept a flask of whisky on him and would sip on it through the day while working at a hotel customer service/booking phone line. His revenue numbers were fine.
- Comment on [deleted] 5 months ago:
I hate insecure sex negative guys so fucking much.
- Comment on Anon sacrifices for the family 5 months ago:
They’re smug about it? The makes zero sense. I feel like you aren’t telling the full truth here.
If what you say is true though, they definitely have some kind of mental illness. You seem to despise them but ultimately they did not choose to exist, you brought them into the world.
- Comment on [deleted] 5 months ago:
You’d think gang bangs would be more common. Guys/tops are mostly all very horny and you only need 1 bottom.
- Comment on Personalized Political Spectrum 5 months ago:
So you think you and those that agree with you should have power over people but have no responsibility to them?
I legitimately don’t care if you think I’m stupid I know what you think is smart.
- Comment on Personalized Political Spectrum 5 months ago:
Imagining yourselves as everyone’s parents… Literal unironic paternalism.
Having a .ml as one’s actual parent sounds like a nightmare though. Absolutely a sure fire way to create an anarcho-capitalist or some shit in the natural backlash.
- Comment on No like really bro I’m just here for the silly shoes 6 months ago:
Unfortunately, I’m infected with the “Why do something unless you’re trying to get gud?”
Which means, I’ll try something for a while and if I think I have some base talent as a foundation and I don’t have anything else I’m obsessed with at the time I’m absolutely going to fixate on it until I’m really good. But if I think I’m doomed to mediocrity I completely lose interest in it. Note that I don’t have to start off good, I just need to feel an intuition of “Oh, I could go somewhere with this.”
I suck at bowling and I don’t ever want to do it. I only begrudgingly do it because friends drag me to it and if they let me I’ll sit out and just chit chat instead of actually playing.
- Comment on UwU🥺👉👈 6 months ago:
Its consciousness, not conscience. Conscience is specifically one’s moral awareness.
Also its closer to 4 billion years.
That said, I understand her anger about stupid people. And people who slut shame can die in a fire.
- Comment on All of a sudden he thinks that it's a spectacular plan. 6 months ago:
American Christian Evangelicals want the end of the world prophecy to happen.
Israel fucking hates Muslims and Islam and want to reclaim their holy land. They’re Jewish supremacists.
Iran fucking hates Jews and Judiasm and really fucking hate Israel, and not because of the Gaza genocide. Out of these three, Iran would merely prefer to stick to proxy conflicts and not direct conflict, but they still fucking despise Jews.
They’re all religious nutcases. This is basically 40k level mindless hatred, every group is evil.
- Comment on All of a sudden he thinks that it's a spectacular plan. 6 months ago:
Its both. Its religious cope to suggest that religious belief is not a motivating factor for a significant portion of this war and its participants. Both among the owner class and working class.
Religion is fucking stupid and harmful.
- Comment on Dumb glasses 6 months ago:
I’m about to clock out from work and I wont have access to this account until Monday morning. I may or may not respond to you after this, but I am curious enough that if you have something notable to say I probably will.
Why would I give a shit about anything you have to say after hearing something like this?
I don’t know you so I couldn’t say. It sounds like you shouldn’t if you are an incurious person or intellectually fearful person.
I don’t care about your virtue though. Why should I? We will never meet in person. We don’t need to respect each other here, that isn’t why we’re talking still. We’re here for the discourse, no?
As a matter of strategy, a very good phrase, I don’t take opinions from people who are societally suicidal.
Strategy to achieve what? I’m advocating to make things better for individuals. Conscious beings. However, the collective, society, human civilization, none of these things are themselves conscious. Why do you care about these concepts over the conscious individuals materially contained within them?
When I talk about bolstering and reinforcing a strong community, perspectives like yours are exactly the kind I’m talking about pruning. Society cannot suffer your intellectual poison. If you want to die, do it on your own terms.
I never said I wished to die. At least not in the sense that you probably think. I already exist, me dying does not close Pandora’s Box, it cements the the fact that to live at all is a horror and a tragedy. Conscious mortality is fundamentally disturbing.
I’m sad that I have ever existed because I’m doomed to face death and suffering, but mostly the former haunts me. It haunts me that my loved ones will one day die, some already have a long time ago and it still disturbs me on a fundamental level. I’m also horrified at the prospect of bringing more conscious beings to suffer the same nightmarish fate of being brought into existence strapped to a metaphorical conveyor belt ending in death and oblivion.
My only expectation of you is that you will live, and that living means something to you. The only thing you can do is disappoint me.
Because I will continue to live or commit suicide? Or are you saying either or? I’m not entirely clear one what this means. As paradoxical as it sounds I don’t legitimately know if I’m capable of suicide. Its strange to even think about given my sheer terror of death itself, but also yeah… death will happen eventually, why not rip off the bandaid? I really don’t know what is the rational choice. Perhaps I am a hypocrite in this way.
If our axioms are really fundamentally different from mine, then perhaps there is no reason for us to continue. But if any of the questions in this response to you has you reconsider anything there might be something interesting here to talk about.