I sometimes question if my memories are even real… or if I’m missing any.
Like I feel like there are hidden traumas that got wiped by someone, like… trauma that’s even worse than those that I currently remember, or I wonder if the happy memories are perhaps implanted by someone to try to cover up trauma.
I often wonder if I really am me, what if this is all fabricated, what if my name isn’t actually ■■■ and I wasn’t actually born in ■■■■.
Do y’all even trust your current memories? Do you trust that you are who your memories say you are?
darthelmet@lemmy.zip 1 hour ago
I recently had ECT for depression. It didn’t work, but it did make me forget about a bunch of random stuff. It’s been such a weird experience. One of the more benign things that keeps coming up is I forget if I watched/finished a show or game and even if I know I did, I can’t remember much about it. I worry about what else I’ve forgotten but I don’t know yet because it hasn’t come up. Like I haven’t been able to work because of my depression, but if at some point in the future I finally get it cured, or at least under control enough to go work, I worry that I’ll just randomly not remember some important things I learned in school or something like that.
So it’s definitely possible to do things that delete memories. I don’t see a reason why with more research we could learn enough about the brain to do this selectively instead of it being a random side effect.
As for whether I’d be worried about such a technology: That has more to do with what our society would look like than the actual tech. If we finally reached a society where we are all truly free, then while I might not use it, I wouldn’t fault others who decided some memory was too painful to keep. If we still lived in a society like we have today, I’d be terrified that the rich and powerful would have yet another tool to fuck with us.