DeathByBigSad
@DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works
- Comment on Am I right to be afraid of germs / is my family disgusting or am I overreacting and this is germaphobia? (read post) 6 hours ago:
My older brother did that “eating alone” first back in like I remember like 2017s or so… then after covid… I became more germophobic and so I also started doing that…
But mom also says a lot of annoying stuff to him like “omg look at your hair, it looks ugly (I mean it does tbh)”, “you’re fat, lose some weight”, “did you meet any girls in school”, “stop using your left hand to hold chopsticks”, “do you think you’re able to get married”/“look at you, would any girl even want you”… etc…
so it’s not unusual why he didn’t like eating at the table
I watch Spy x Family and similar media with good family dynamics… and it melts my heart… cuz IRL is so different… less wholesome…
- Comment on Am I right to be afraid of germs / is my family disgusting or am I overreacting and this is germaphobia? (read post) 6 hours ago:
kitchen table
That’s not the table where you cook stuff btw, that’s the table where you sit at and eat… like a diningroom table, I guess that’s what you call it…
Or what was supposed to be… these days me and my older brother just hide in our rooms and eat…
- Comment on Am I right to be afraid of germs / is my family disgusting or am I overreacting and this is germaphobia? (read post) 6 hours ago:
Sure thing… house is filled with cockroaches anyways.
- Comment on Am I right to be afraid of germs / is my family disgusting or am I overreacting and this is germaphobia? (read post) 7 hours ago:
Like right now…
Just been in the common areas for food and I feel kinda contaminated so I wipe down my phone with disinfectant wipes and like areas of my clothes or my body that made contact with stuff… or like if I feel like someone was talking and feel like they might have accidentally spit over me while talking
I also dont trust any leftovers… or any open bottle of water or soda…
Like I feel like my older brother might contaminate it… he drank out of a milk container with his mouth… so that’s around when I stopped having cereal…
I feel like he’s TRYING to poison me or something…
Okay I sound kinda germaphobic don’t I?
- Comment on Am I right to be afraid of germs / is my family disgusting or am I overreacting and this is germaphobia? (read post) 7 hours ago:
Just normal trash… sometimes they spit in the trash can… so there’s that… saliva is disgusting…
So… okay my house is kinda fucked up…
There’s this issue with the 2nd floor bathtub randomly leaking…
Here’s a picture of what the ceiling looks like right now:
So they had to put a container below where it leaks:
So they sometimes take this container and put it on the table to collect the trash… Like ON THE TABLE…
Ewww bathtub drain water is gonna contaminate it…
Also the table looks like this right now:
Literally like 95% of the stuff on there stays on there like 365 days a year… its been like this since like 2017 as far as I can remember…
Maybe if guests come they clear the table… then aftet they leave shit goes back to the old ways…
Also, regarding the bathroom… nah… I’ll spare you the photo… don’t even want that nasty image in my photo album… just picture a small bin next to the toilet with a bunch of USED toilet paper…
- Comment on Am I right to be afraid of germs / is my family disgusting or am I overreacting and this is germaphobia? (read post) 8 hours ago:
FUCK
Covid destroyed my sanity… 😭
- Comment on Am I right to be afraid of germs / is my family disgusting or am I overreacting and this is germaphobia? (read post) 8 hours ago:
Although keep in mind that men are able to urinate without touching anything unclean.
But I heard my mom went into the bathroom, touched a lid thing, peed, then touch the thing to flush the toilet, then I did not hear the tap run… so sometimes I was like “MOM WASH YOUR HANDS” but mom replied “people who work in restaurants are even worse”, washed her hands that one time (idk if soap was even used), then proceeds to never wash hands the following times…
Ugh…
I remember when I was a kid… I was the one who had to be reminded by her to wash hands… now its flipped… the heck…
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- Comment on [deleted] 11 hours ago:
English, obviously.
Cantonse and Mandarin.
Understand a bit of Taishanese but not well enought to speak full sentences… (mostly curse words xD). Parents never spoke to me in Taishanese.
Can read basic Chinese characters (simplified… looking at traditional gives me headaches)… I can type with Pinyin and Jyutping… can’t write… (its like you know what a picture looks like but hard to draw that picture by hand… know what I mean?)
I went to school in China till 2nd grade…
I remember teachers had a meter stick and would slap your hand with it as “discipline” and my mom APRROVES OF IT… 💀
They would throw chalk at you if you looked like you weren’t paying attention… (sometimes they missed and hit another kid xD)
They played the stupid National Anthem just like the US does.
They make you memorize whole short story and recite it and make you stay late afterschool if and make you recite it… and I remember sometimes they had another kid standing behind the teacher and held the book open so the other kid being quizzed on it can secretly cheat off of it lmfao…
I can probably survive in Mainland China, HK, Taiwan, as a tourist, without needing translation… (I’m gonna sound like a 2nd grader tho lol)
Honestly I rather just forget those languages and become monolingual if it means not have to deal with the cultural baggage…
为什么华人父母这么恶？烦的要死。。。😭
屌那星
- Comment on Why is AI so bad at coming up with dialogue? 1 day ago:
LLM is not AI
Actual AI does not yet exist for the public as far as we know
- Comment on He has become a felon 34 times over, impeached twice, is there anything else anyone can do to get Trump out of office besides a storming the gates? 1 day ago:
Send a message to the Trisolarians.
All hails our alien overlords!
- Comment on Is it weird for parents to keep saying "I love you", then asks "Do you love me?" 1 day ago:
It sounds like things parents would ask their kids in a K-drama?
😭 Am I in a TV Drama?
nervously checks room for cameras
Is this a Truman Show?
Are my parents actors?
- Comment on Is it weird for parents to keep saying "I love you", then asks "Do you love me?" 1 day ago:
I mean sorry if I keep making these weird posts… but like its better than keeping thoughts in my head… bottling up everything only makes it worse…
The thing with internet is that you can vent any time you want… seeking professional help takes time, like they’re not on call 24/7 to listen to you…
Sometimes I wish they created an actual AI (like an actual Artificial General Intelligence, not those LLM shit) for you to talk to.
Sometimes I wish I could visit an alternate timeline where that version of my self “figured it out”… so maybe I could ask him for advice…
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- Comment on Would you ever call your son a disappointment? 2 days ago:
Bruh I’m an Asian son and I’ve been on the receiving end of these words 💀
- Comment on If a US bank only insures your money up to 250k does that mean I have to visit four different back to have a million dollars insured? 2 days ago:
If you have a million, you should be investing it, not letting it sit in a bank.
You’d have a million in assets, not a million in cash.
Cash is evaporating every moment it sits there (inflation)
You the borrow money using those assets as collateral to do more investing.
The profits from the investments goes to repaying the loan.
I can’t go in details but I’ve see this firsthand.
They do not ever have more than 100k sitting in a bank except temporarily.
- Comment on Why am I not Irish 4 days ago:
When you think of it like that… an NSA agent can read through all my posts and, without even needing to get my IP, they could uniquely identify me by cross referencing their database.
I mean who else in the world is (these are already info I’ve posted here and am comfortable with publishing… I don’t care about hiding this):
- Born in China
- Somehow survive One Child Policy as the 2nd child
- Immigrated to the US
- Speaks Cantonese and Mandarin with Taishan Ancestry
Literally just these 4 datapoints narrow down to like… probably no more than like 100 people (I assume, I don’t have the stats)
Then you filter for: everything else like age… citizenship… how long been here… cities lived in… favorite Animes, Movies, TV shows…
Bingo, I’m the only one that matches that…
Hello NSA, ya got me! 👀
(Assuming the info is real… who knows… maybe I obfuscated some details…)
I wanna publish a memoir some day so I’ll just see how unique/intriguing my story is… 👀
- Comment on Why am I not Irish 4 days ago:
I recommend watching Jacksepticeye… it’s very therapeudic…
- Comment on Why am I not Irish 4 days ago:
Oh yes this “birth statistics” thing… like this line of thoughts is causing me a sort of existential crisis…
Like… me being born ethnicallt Chinese in Mainland China was literally a statistic… its like amongst the top 2 countries in terms of births, even account for one child policy… like its over 10% chance… and oh yea there were like 400 million that were born against policy… like me 🫠
In terms of world population…it’s a 1 in 7 chance
So… yea I’m just a statistic…
But what’s not a statistic is the fact that I’m a diaspora… that’s kinda rare for China in terms of percentage…
But then again I’m Taishanese (台山) ancestry… so that’s just standard for us… most of Chinese Emigration have Taishanese ancestry…
I wish I was Norweigian… but the odds of being orn norweigian is like impossible… sad 🙃
Why am I here?
I think about The Egg by Andy Weir sometimes… what if I die now then get reincarnated as a woman in the middle east, then spawnkilled… 👀
okay sorry I’m just rambling now xD
- Comment on Am I messed up being in my 30ish believe in Superheroes actually exsist? And we just don't hear about them? I just like to think that their is a person or persons out there.....q 4 days ago:
You, too, can be a superhero when a dictator arrives at your operating table… 😏
- Comment on What’s the endgame? 4 days ago:
Agent Krasnov has been activated
- Comment on [deleted] 4 days ago:
AI-Chip in all new devices that have low-level access overriding the entire OS and editing your photo album to gaslight you.
“What do you mean you have an alibi? You were at [Location A]? BUT HERE YOUR PHONE HAS SELFIES OF YOU CLEARLY AT THE MURDER SCENE!”
- Comment on Do rich people get addicted to drugs? 4 days ago:
I mean…
Exhibit A: Succession…
Literally every episode has drugs…
Its not a show about bussiness… its just parties, drugs, famiky therapy, a board meeting coup-attempt in between, more parties, and DRUGS
- Comment on Why am I not Irish 4 days ago:
Oh I’m an alien alright, but I’m not an ALIEN like you know… roswell… area 51 type of alien… certainly not an advanced space-faring civilization… probes into space DOES NOT COUNT as “ADVANCED SPACEFARING CIVILLIZATION”, jesus christ they haven’t even put a human on the moon yet… 🤦♂️
- Comment on Why am I not Irish 4 days ago:
Why am I not born in an advanced space-faring alien civillization? 😥
- Comment on The world might be on fire but at least we got unrestricted access to Youtube... right? RIGHT? 5 days ago:
Nope, its not. They posted a video complaining about youtube marking that video like that cuz it’s basically like being demonitized
- Comment on The world might be on fire but at least we got unrestricted access to Youtube... right? RIGHT? 5 days ago:
Went from Chairman Xi to Chairman Trump 😭
- The world might be on fire but at least we got unrestricted access to Youtube... right? RIGHT?sh.itjust.works ↗Submitted 5 days ago to mildlyinfuriating@lemmy.world | 9 comments
- Comment on 18-26 year olds, How do you plan to dodge the draft? 6 days ago:
that’s how you end up in a labor camp making military drones instead
- Comment on 18-26 year olds, How do you plan to dodge the draft? 6 days ago:
Wait that’s an option? 👀
Hmm I guess I’ll just die. 🤷♂️
Maybe I’ll find my faith into Buddhism or something lmao.
Oh yea btw, my mom called me weak and cowardly and unmannly and once told me “You should join the military so you can become more ‘Manly’ and ‘brave’”
I was like “Sureee mom, so when WW3 breaks out and they deploy me to Taiwan, I get to shoot at China’s PLA soldiers…” (context: my family is from China) then mom got mad at me and told me that I’m so weak no military would ever accept me anyways… lmfao.
So if I get drafted and die in war… maybe my mom will finally be happy that her son “died a man” or whateverz…
