HEXN3T
@HEXN3T@lemmy.blahaj.zone
- Comment on [deleted] 6 days ago:
BPD moment. Mental health issues are bastards of things. I’ve tried to stop. I have stopped. The issue is the brain is literally trained to be like that–constantly on edge after a whole lifetime of needing to be on edge. I’m literally fighting the very composition of my brain when I force the splitting to turn off, but it doesn’t last. I wish it was that easy. The only way that cycle breaks is with therapy and patience.
I’ll tell you the other side of it. It’s being terrified of being abandoned. It’s not knowing if others are being honest, because trusting others has caused trauma in the past. It’s believing you’re horrible, and contemptible, and unable to change. We need the reassaurence because we don’t trust the environment unchanging. Basically, it’s a grounding mechanism. Read about hypervigilance.
It’s a fucking miserable life I’m glad most people will never have to live. Honestly, we need a PSA about it.
- Comment on Ответьте на мой призыв 3 weeks ago:
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- Comment on [deleted] 4 weeks ago:
My OSDD-1b system:
- Comment on Don't believe everything that you breathe 4 weeks ago:
Just wait until you hear about the Boltzmann brain looollll
(Probably not gonna happen but it’d be hilarious if it did)
- Comment on Emotional manipulation jar 5 weeks ago:
I know. It’s a hard condition to tolerate, and even harder to understand. Sometimes, BPD feels like a brand that means you can only be around others with BPD…
…Seeing as the only friends who’ve stuck around with me all have BPD.
Hand in unlovable hand.
- Comment on Emotional manipulation jar 5 weeks ago:
Oh yeah it definitely is, but we resonate really strongly so it’s fine. I’m OSDD-1b, they’re DID/C-PTSD, they’re in an active abuse scenario, I just so happen to be studying cognitive science, it’s unusual.
The dynamic is everything functioning extremely well, until they try to push me away (insisting I’ll abandon them eventually because I secretly hate them), and me insisting I’m not going anywhere. I’ve been blocked and unblocked so much. Once the isolating headmate stops fronting, the rest of the system comes back. There’s also the me restraining so, so hard to not go on a self-loathing spiral, but it happens sometimes. The “so you hate me” narrative definitely exists in me, but my unusually deep understanding of these disorders helps a lot. Can’t outpace my nervous system every time, though. Not for a lack of trying.
Rough shit. That’s life, though. We’re holding on.
- Comment on Emotional manipulation jar 5 weeks ago:
Me and partner because BPD lol
- Comment on (im vegan) 5 weeks ago:
Posted twice in my family group chat
- Comment on We’ve arrived 1 month ago:
🪩
- Comment on Why are dads like this? 1 month ago:
Like what?
- Comment on [deleted] 2 months ago:
Because childhood be like that yeag
- Comment on not being able to experience a full-body-orgasm is just another example of the sad male reality. 2 months ago:
Indeed, and they also fucking lied my libido is WAY stronger than before
- Comment on [deleted] 2 months ago:
BPD -> Dark Triad 👍
- Comment on It ain't acid 2 months ago:
Yeag I’m just in it to know what it’s like, and little else. I definitely do draw a line with dragonFLY though.
- Comment on It ain't acid 2 months ago:
Unless you’re like me and bought it on purpose lol
- Comment on Say hi to the machine elves for me 2 months ago:
I saw a room turn into 20 rooms before with some fun time manipulation shit, I was terrified I loved it
- Comment on Shitpost 2 months ago:
BPDposting
- Comment on [deleted] 3 months ago:
Borderline :3
- Comment on [deleted] 3 months ago:
I had a troubled childhood and so did you
- Comment on RAS Syndrome 4 months ago:
SMH my head
- Comment on Find what you like and stick with it 4 months ago:
I have a less severe version of the same thing. ARFID. Turns out I’m not that crazy.
- Comment on Harm production 4 months ago:
Myes I love 3 breaths per minute
- Comment on Spong Berb Adventures #8 5 months ago:
Clair Obscur: Expedition 33
- Comment on You don't say. 5 months ago:
Just get over it.
- Comment on a man of many minds 5 months ago:
We’re a system and can’t get this image out of our head now thanks 💀
- Comment on yeet 5 months ago:
I’m a system and can confirm that any direct suppression is gonna go wrong. I have the benefit of actually being able to directly talk to those background thoughts’ origin points, and work things out from there instead of chaining the regions down. It’s how solving a lot of personality disorders works (mostly BPD in our case). It’s how we even turned a lot of those regions into forces for good.
Be kind to yourself–not just others.
- Comment on 👁️👄👁️ 5 months ago:
Nicholas Cage (???)
- Comment on Psychedelics are the cheat code 5 months ago:
Me when the 4-bromo-2,5-dimethoxyphenethylamine just makes me horny
- Comment on A complete tier list for our solar system 5 months ago:
DEMOCRACY!!!
- Comment on Kinda how I feel tbh 6 months ago:
Aphantasia