I would like to add a description (details), but it would be a very long text.
In short: I have depression, multiple chronic illnesses, C-PTSD, ADHD, no money to rent on my own, poor physical and mental health, some basic things I don’t have money for, I don’t have a computer and it seems that my laptop will soon broken…
I can’t go to a psychologist because… the quality of education and medicine in this country is terrible, and it’s dangerous to say “everything” here, my mother recently worked, but now she’s left without work and starts doing some kind of crap, she was the one who brought in the income until this time; she feeds me fast food. In this country everyone doesn’t give a sh*t about each other, I am surrounded by “broken” people, this is a country full of cynics, sociopaths, and narcissists (consider mentally ill… and genetically defective, apparently).
Like this…
labbbb@thelemmy.club 9 months ago
…the army of my moronic country has killed thousands of Ukrainian civilians, foreign media have been writing for a whole year that this country wants to start a war with NATO.
I’m really sorry, I don’t know what to do… I constantly live in stress, anxiety, with a feeling of hopelessness, depression, I’m procrastinate a lot…
Normal people, in principle, do not live in this country, and my mother does not consider me to be a person, as, in principle, most ruSSians (these mad dogs) treat each other.
r_13@lemmy.world 9 months ago
Your English language is excellent, is that something you can use to your benefit?
labbbb@thelemmy.club 9 months ago
Guys, I can understand pretty well what is said in the text in English, but I am not good at listening and speaking English. I can form sentences a little, but I sometimes make serious mistakes, such as putting the tense wrong.
I used an online translator to write the text in this thread.
Candelestine@lemmy.world 9 months ago
… yikes. That must be hell.
You speak fluent English, any markets for that kind of skill in that area? Could teach maybe?
Unfortunately, the time-honored tradition for people in your situation is to keep your head down, keep quiet and be careful. I imagine you probably already knew that though.
Hyperreality@kbin.social 9 months ago
They do, it's just that like you they've learnt to be careful about what they say, and to only look out for themselves out of hard experience. Or they once cared, but life ground them down, so they sought escape in alcohol or whatever.
Not that this helps, but maybe it'll help you feel less lonely, when someone says something stupid. They may simply be pretending to be an idiot.
Obviously, this is by design. If people were open about being unhappy about their country, this would threaten the government.
I can't help you with work, but reading and podcasts can be a great help when you don't have access to mental health services.
labbbb@thelemmy.club 9 months ago
The book you’re recommended is about PTSD, but not a C-PTSD, so I thinking if it’s make sense…
labbbb@thelemmy.club 9 months ago
I smiled reading your comment.
Thanks for the book recommendation. I already use a VPN, but piracy is bad tho