Nangijala
@Nangijala@feddit.dk
- Comment on kiwis! 5 days ago:
I love that clip so much. It will never not be funny af to me.
- Comment on Why is lemmy so political?! 1 week ago:
This is like saying that everything is religious and that everyone is religious and then making arguments for why everything can be turned into religious doctrin.
You’re technically not wrong if you choose to have that lens on for everything, but it is a very limiting way of viewing the world and to someone like me, borderline madness.
It is also more of an uhm actually argument rather than engaging with the point I was making that I think most of us are aware of. When someone says they would like to avoid politics they are more often than not referring to the aggressive and argumentative stupidity that occurs between people when certain inflamed topics - usually current events in politics - are brought up. It is pretty easy to discern that from anyone who says “can we just not talk about politics right now?”
Much like dicks and religion, some people just don’t want that shit shoved down their fucking throats constantly because it is rarely if ever productive and beneficial to anyone. It is, at most a passing contest or an attempt to shame and attack people who sees the world differently from yourself.
- Comment on Why is lemmy so political?! 1 week ago:
Even after filtering out as much of it as possible. Its like a cancer, spreading to every forum page on here.
That also goes for the forums I have subbed to.
- Comment on Why is lemmy so political?! 1 week ago:
Preach, my friend. It is actually the main reason I’m considering deleting my profile because part of the reason I left mainstream social media was to get away from politics and ideological lunatics, but this platform is fucking full of both. Even after filtering out as much of it as possible. Its like a cancer, spreading to every forum page on here.
Is there anywhere on the internet where people are just focusing on hobbies and interests that aren’t mired in hatred and aggression?
- Comment on Anon reads between the lines 1 week ago:
Seems like Metal Gear Solid is the gamer version of Disney’s Snow White, because that girl motivated me so much to clean my room when I was a kid. Her and Mary Poppins. And so some extent, Pippi Longstocking too.
- Comment on Congratulations, homosexual! 1 week ago:
Are you telling me that there are companies out there that actually care about the LGBT for real?
- Comment on AI Training Slop 1 week ago:
It sure is possible, because I untagged myself from all pictures people had tagged me on before deleting all comments I ever wrote, all pictures I ever posted myself and then deleted my Facebook after that.
For years, the only thing that kept me on Facebook was that I had a few people I only had contact with through messenger due to us being from differnet countries.
When I learned about Signal, I immediately got those people onto that app so we could stay in contact and then I went on a mass destruction rampage of my profile. Literally went from “but I have to keep it because of my connections” to “let me simulate digital dementia, bitch”.
I understand that most people can’t do what I did. For me it was several years of gradual detachment from the platform that made it super easy to pull the plug in the end. It’s a bit harder for those who actively use fb every day for social connections and jobs and so on. So I get it.
But yeah, you can’t really control whether or not people keep posting about you after you leave. I have already had that happen after visiting an old friend and honestly, I cannot bring myself to care about it.
- Comment on AI Training Slop 1 week ago:
I remember years ago someone in my class decided to make Russian look alike pictures of everyone in the class and post them as a gag on the doors. I forget what it was called, but several of my classmates were angry that the person had taken their pictures without consent and given them to some weird Russian picture algorithm.
At this point in time, I have no doubt that all kinds of pictures and information regarding me is in the hands of people and companies I don’t care for.
It is hard to avoid when you don’t have any control over your own information because people share your pictures and your info without consulting you. All the time and without malice. It is what it is.
- Comment on Console war, console war never changes 1 week ago:
I have a few dumb mobile type games on my iPad that I play when I need to not think, and I watch a good friend play video games on twitch now and again while we chat about life over the phone.
I haven’t owned a console since 2015 and am not on Steam. There are many games out there with amazing stories that I will miss out on, but I’m okay with it, tbh. I’ll catch a playthrough on youtube if a game attracts my attention enough, but even that has been awhile. Nothing against games or gamers. I just lost interest one day and I never regained it.
- Comment on I feel attacked 1 week ago:
I friggin wish xD
- Comment on I feel attacked 1 week ago:
I feel like I’m doing the midlife crisis thing wrong. I’m factionless atm. I’m also too tired to have a crisis. My time is spent going to work and trying to survive in a field that is increasingly difficult to survive in.
I’m jealous some people have time and energy to have a full on crisis on the side. You lucky, lucky bastards.
- Comment on Console war, console war never changes 1 week ago:
I am so glad I abandoned video games in 2015. I feel for the rest of you, though.
- Comment on Anon measures up 2 weeks ago:
Thanks 😊 and hey, we can’t all be super passionate and energetic all the time. We also have periods of time where we are the embodiment of dull, so don’t feel bad!
- Comment on Anon measures up 2 weeks ago:
Jokes aside, one of the many things that attracted me to my boyfriend was his passion for his hobbies. He has the same eagerness and dedication to his interests and it is very endearing and motivating to be around someone like that.
- Comment on Anon measures up 2 weeks ago:
Most women want neither, tbh. I think the internet has curated an extremely skewed perspective on what women want thanks to the manosphere. If you move into female-centric circles on the internet and listen to how we talk about men and what we want, it is a completely different solar system from the one the manosphere has perpetuated online the past few years.
I for one, was absolutely obsessed with Joey Jordison (RIP, king) when I was a teenage girl.
- Comment on Anon measures up 2 weeks ago:
Seriously, I have been in a relationship for a decade and a half and some of the relationship advice I have seen men give other men on the internet the past several years tells me that they have never been in stable relationships themselves.
It also tells me that most of them have no clue what women want.
- Comment on Wishing for this kind of world 3 weeks ago:
Vegans: I’m vegan
Society: OK.
Greeks: that’s okay. I make lamb.
- Comment on It's My Nature 4 weeks ago:
My stupid brain read you comment in the “when will you wear wigs” voice. Urgh. I need to go to bed.
- Comment on It's My Nature 4 weeks ago:
I think you are entirely missing the point of the fable.
- Comment on What was she thinking when she did this? 4 weeks ago:
She probably thought she should only make this hairdo once as the universe cannot handle this much awesomeness too often.
- Comment on How can you tell 23 subgenres of equally shitty growls and screams apart, but not see the most Metal basics? 4 weeks ago:
It sucks because black metal has become one of my favourite subgenres in metal. I absolutely love how there is this reoccurring theme of worshipping nature in all her beauty and brutality. It is so sick.
I stayed away from black metal entirely in my teens back in the 2000s because of all the scary rumors, but began listening to some of it during the pandemic. I was in this music exploration phase and black metal totally blew my mind. It is genuinely one of the most beautiful subgenres in metal.
And yes, there are nazis and Satanists and so on in this subgenre, but black metal was also built by and for edgelords originally. The amount of snarls gatekeepers and contrarianism that went on at the birth of Norwegian black metal is so beyond cringe that when I finally sat down and read up on the history, I had several times where I felt secondhand embarrassment for everyone involved.
The types of people who are attracted to the original philosophy of black metal tend to also be very immature types who seek shocking and repulsive behaviors to have people around them react. The fact that they, among many other things, attach themselves to nazisism is just a symptom of the edgelord mindset where everything is done to one-up and shock others. It is so pathetic.
Meanwhile there are also many normal people who just want to make awesome art and black metal is a way for them to be killer fucking poets/musicians while looking and sounding like rotting corpses.
I have a few artists and bands I listen to and love for their songs about nature or mental health. Psychonaut4, Lustre, Blackbraid, Advent Sorrow, Nargaroth, Thy Light and Agalloch are some of my go-to artists when I’m in my BM corner.
- Comment on I fucking hate modern design and modern designers. 4 weeks ago:
I hate the “read” function more in different messaging services. And when they show when you and others are online.
Personally, I don’t care for any of that shit, but in the past I have had people letting me know that they knew I was online and they knew I had read their message and why hadn’t I replied to them yet, hmm???
That shit can fuck all the way off. I need to be in the right headspace to reply to messages. It would be a full time fucking job if I had to sit and reply to people all day when they wanted me to. I don’t expect people to reply to me immediately either. I know people have lives that take up their time. I’m not their first priority and I don’t kid myself into thinking I’m entitled to be.
Would appreciate the same respect in return.
- Comment on How can you tell 23 subgenres of equally shitty growls and screams apart, but not see the most Metal basics? 4 weeks ago:
It isn’t for me, tbf, but I’m glad if you enjoy it 🤗
My German teacher traumatized me with Christiane F when I was 15. Not like I wanted to try anything before then, but that movie fucked me up lol. Same teacher had a mental breakdown when they found out one of my schoolmates had been secretly sniffing lighter gas in her room for months. I will never forget the heartbroken face of my teacher. I always think of her whenever drugs come up in any context. I just can’t do that to her.
- Comment on How can you tell 23 subgenres of equally shitty growls and screams apart, but not see the most Metal basics? 4 weeks ago:
Art = scaring parents for centuries.
My dad was also convinced that my group of friends would get me into drugs which is fucking hilarious. I tried so many times to explain to him and my mom that my friends were all socially awkward nerds who unironically did Naruto runs when no one was looking. We were cringe as fuck and most of us were former bully victims who lived sheltered lives and and just really liked watching animated movies and shows. Many of us had never really had friends before either, so having interests to bond over was pretty cool.
But because we also dressed in black, some dying their hair in crazy colors and we listened to metal, we had to be criminals. I am in my mid 30s now, still listen to metal and I have yet to do drugs and violent crimes. Any day now, though!
- Comment on How can you tell 23 subgenres of equally shitty growls and screams apart, but not see the most Metal basics? 4 weeks ago:
I dunno what to tell you but women can be nazis too.
Besides, every hobby has assholes in it. But because there are a few pieces of shit in metal, doesn’t mean all of metal is racist or sexist. That’s like saying people who like science fiction are nazis and misogynist because Wernher von Braun wrote Project Mars.
And last I checked, metal didn’t embrace nazis. There are fringe nazi sympathizers in metal, but metal as a whole is repulsed by nazisism. They just can’t control what some people do. Just like how punk can’t control of there are a few nazi punk bands out there no matter how much they try to reject them.
It genuinely pisses me off how such a small group of assholes can get so many people to act like metal as a whole is racist. It was no different back in the 2000s where my parents also wanted me to stop listening to it because my dad found one article about a guy who beat up his girlfriend and he apparently liked Metallica.
This is the blaming video games for school shooters argument all over again. And back then, metal was blamed for that too.
- Comment on How can you tell 23 subgenres of equally shitty growls and screams apart, but not see the most Metal basics? 4 weeks ago:
I don’t know where this is coming from because I grew up in the era of Marilyn Manson, the Murderdolls and Dir En Grey (etc.) Where gender was some fluid shit and everybody vibed with it.
Even though I don’t like them, I also remember Rammstein playing around with gender expression.
Overall, my personal experience with metal since teenhood in the 2000s is that metalheads are extremely chill and open minded and the bigots are some fringe groups here and there that nobody likes to talk to anyways.
- Comment on Pope Joan 5 weeks ago:
This one always makes me laugh because I have known guys like him with that exact smug look on their face and similar worldviews and none of them had their lives together.
- Comment on This was Alex Jones once 5 weeks ago:
I love Linklater, but Waking Life is his worst movie in my humble opinion. It was almost impossible to get through for me. The only relief in that film is that Jesse and Céline got a cameo.
The Before Trilogy is his superior work. I’m still upset he didn’t make a fourth movie in 2022, but I get it. A trilogy is more marketable than a quadrilogy or more.
- Comment on This woman must have a really bad dog 5 weeks ago:
Yeah, I could never say if you’re right or wrong, but yeah. I want there to be a reason and not for it to have been an owner who just wanted to get rid of their dog, so I’ll think it was parvo from now on.
As for the vets in that clinic, they were very nice people. The one who euthanized the dog was an incredibly nice and empathetic man and he took me under his wing all week while the other was a hardcore surgeon and he was utterly hilarious and very intimidating. Which is a great combo, I suppose. I have no doubt these guys cared about the animals they took care of.
My best experience was probably the big operation on an elderly dog with a huge tumor that grew out of the spleen. It legit looked like the tumor was a grey, smooth rock and the spleen was a shriveled slug sitting on top of it. It was incredible witnessing them work on the dog and it took such a long time. Afterwards the intimidating vet took me out to the sink and cut the tumor in half and left me look at it inside. It was one of the ugliest things I had seen. Just all grey and hard and alien and the smell of it was something I have never smelled since. I can best describe it as a cold smell. I dunno.
I was tasked with babysitting the dog after it woke up from surgery. He was so scared and confused and kept snuggling up into my arms despite being a fully grown lab. I made sure he ate some food and got something to drink, but he kept ending up snuggling up against me and wanting kisses and hugs. It felt like i was comforting a little child who was crying. He was such a sweet dog. He was 9 years old and was named Rico. The family that owned him had a bunch of kids and I understood why they had decided to spend all that money to save him instead of putting him down because he was too precious. He was so loved. That tumor was huge. I can’t imagine what it must have been like to carry that around in his body.
Anyways, I loved that dog even though I only got to spend a day with him where for most of it he was unconscious and split open like a hotdog, lol. I legit got to see all of his insides because the tumor was so big, they had to cut him open all the way. They poured water into him before closing him back up and holy shit, so many layers of tissue and skin to sow before calling it a job done. If it wasn’t for the euthanasia of the puppy, then the operation of Rico, would probably have convinced me to become a vet.
- Comment on This woman must have a really bad dog 5 weeks ago:
This gave me a flashback to when I was 14 and interning for a week at the local vet.
Super eventful week where I got to observe operations on animals with everything from handball sized tumors to cysts and even one or two castrations.
Got to go with the vet to slaughterhouses and farms and all that jazz.
I also got to assist in euthanizing a dog and I think that was what made me second guess a career as a vet.
I still think I would have loved that type of work, but in my naive little mind, I thought that euthanasia would be done only out of mercy and necessity. If the animal was too old, too sick or too injured to save.
But I was wrong. It was an 8 month old puppy. I don’t know the breed, but a smaller dog. Very energetic. He was so happy and excited. The owner came and dropped him off and didn’t make eyecontact with either the vet or me. He left, almost ashamed.
I asked the vet what was wrong with the dog and either the vet didn’t give me an answer or I have forgotten what he said.
To my 14 year old self, that dog looked completely healthy and normal. Why were we putting him down? I kept asking if we really had to do it. Couldn’t we figure out a way to let him live and the vet let me know that euthanasia was what was going to happen today.
He asked me to hold the dog. He was such a happy puppy. I held him and he was very hyper. First the vet gave him sedatives. “Then he won’t feel anything.”
The puppy calmed down in my arms and I hugged his warm little body. I didn’t want it to happen, but I was 14 and had no rights to the dog.
The vet filled a syringe with a neon purple liquid and I will never forget that because I didn’t expect it to have a color like that. As an adult, I’m sure the color was to distinguish it from other fluids so that the vet would never accidentally push that shit into an animal that came for shots or sedation. But 14 year old me didn’t know that. Just looked at that purple syringe as he pushed it into the dog and the dog became heavy in my arms.
I didn’t cry because I grew up in the countryside and had already seen my fair share of births and deaths which are both brutal experiences, so I had an emotionally distanced approach to these things.
But I gotta say that it left a deep impact on me that I had helped killing a dog that looked so healthy and happy. I didn’t think I could do that for a career. There was no mercy in killing an animal that had barely gotten to live and was so happy to exist. And maybe there was something wrong with him that I was just too young to understand or not allowed to know. Maybe he just looked healthy but was actually really sick. Maybe the owner didn’t leave so much in shame as he left out of grief.
I’ll never know. But from my perspective at the time, it was just so wrong to kill something just for the sake of it.
It’s over 20 years ago now and I still remember the warmth in the dog’s body and how heavy he became in my arms. He was brown and white. He was such a happy little guy. I don’t even know what his name was, but I’ll never forget.
