dsilverz
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If I were you, I'd knee before the Great Owl. Who?, you may ask. Exactly! Who!
- Comment on How do you people read books? 17 hours ago:
So far, it has been just one book. It's a physical book, a Portuguese translation of an originally anglophone book/grimoire. This book has been the only book I ever read from cover to cover.
Back when I read this book, I used to take it to this public place which I'd describe as a mall of pubs surrounded by a green park. I used to prowl around until I found a place to sit down, be it a public cement bench or some table from an empty pub, preferably the latter, and preferably away from people. I'd then open the page I last read, sometimes going back a few pages earlier so to re-read something, then I'd spend the rest of the night, or until I had the urge to leave, reading several pages of it. I rarely consumed beverages as I'd prefer reading while fasting, but when I did, it was often a beverage with vodka and redberry, or a malzbier.
Sometimes I'd also take it to the subway, but I'd be less likely to afford a nice reading as I'd rarely find available seats. Or I'd take it to the shopping mall, preferably somewhere in the terrace or somewhere as devoid of people as possible.
A few times I'd also take it to a cemetery; I'd sit in a bench, or a random tomb if no benches were available... but, then, it wouldn't take long before I'd get up, wander somewhere else in the cemetery to carve Her sigil/seal somewhere in a dirt patch and light up a incense stick and a red candle I'd bring to the cemetery.
I rarely read it when I was home. And yet, when I got to myself, I realized I managed to read it all. Almost 200 pages in total. Yeah, it's quite short, but it's very deep. It's the only book I keep visible, in my altar. Sometimes I catch myself reading it again to seek specific information.
I bought other books (e.g. Kybalion), but I'm yet to find a book which I'd read as obsessively as this one. Sometimes I guess my next book, a physical book, would be either Liber Al Vel Legis or whatever book She points me.
While I do hoard and read some e-books randomly (but not as cover-to-cover as I did), I prefer physical versions because, well, physical books have no batteries, no telemetry, and they can literally outlive me. The only thing I miss from physical books is having a Ctrl+F to search for a specific word/phrase.
!nostupidquestions@lemmy.world - Comment on New clean energy comes out. *look inside* It’s just boiling water again… 1 day ago:
Not meaning to be the achkshually guy, but, heat is a kind of "light" (EM radiation) within the Infrared range of the spectrum. We can't see it, but snakes can.
!science_memes@mander.xyz - Comment on Tried to login to the arch wiki but was given a 3 minute crypto challenge. 1 day ago:
Good to see it's not just me. I kept receiving heat (pun intended) whenever I criticized these "Proof-of-work anti-bot solutions", now I finally know I'm not alone.
Like an unskippable Youtube ad, we're supposed to sit three minutes while these "solutions" dangerously burn our CPU regardless of whether it's an old CPU, and without asking our consent beforehand (!!!). At least Youtube ads don't (usually) burn the CPU the same way.
And, no, it's nowhere close to being infuriating to the supposedly intended targets of Anubis. OpenAI and the alike are likely laughing of Xe Iaso while they all burn more coal and increase the hyperscale data centers, with Anubis being just a pesky, insignificant pebble inside businessmen shoes. Meanwhile, we, the human users caught in this crossfire, including me with my poor decade-old Acer ES1-572 laptop, we can't afford a new machine should Anubis, Cloudflare and other similar "anti-bot solutions" end up "weighting" our CPU too much it finally makes its way to the underworld with no one being legally liable for the physical damages caused by such algorithms.
If only Anubis, supposedly "different" from Cloudflare's corporate nature, had a "Proceed or Leave" button or checkbox to start the "weighting your heart" thing, I wouldn't be complaining or actively boycotting websites using "PoW anti-bot solutions" (I made myself a Firemonkey userscript to speedrun awindow.close()for pages whose title is one of the "Just a moment..." or "Making sure you're not a bot!", because neither Xe Iaso nor Matthew Prince nor the webmasters using their "PoW anti-bot solutions" would buy me a new laptop if mine eventually died from facing heavy cryptographic computing while my CPU was already struggling with a Blender rendering process in the background). But, no, it's no different than the corporate they swear to be fighting against ("something something one who fights with monsters should be careful lest they thereby become a monster themselves")...
!mildlyinfuriating@lemmy.world - Comment on [deleted] 2 weeks ago:
I was once diagnosed (by the first psychiatrist I ever consulted with) with GAD, back when I was developing burnout from my first job developing. A decade later, I still get GAD crises sometimes, although it's been milder than in the past.
It used to manifest as numbness on face, hands, stomach/belly and feet; an imminent sensation that "something will bring about the end of the entire world today"; a sudden, paradoxically simultaneous agoraphobia (fear of open places) and claustrophobia (fear of enclosed faces), intense vertigo/dizziness; gastrointestinal reflux, hyper salivation, an urge to drink water; tachycardia, verging the arrhythmia, and high blood pressure (easily went past 160 per 90 mmHg). I used to have it while I was working, or taking the bus to the university. At the time, the psychiatrist RX'd me Paxil, which kind of worked to curb the GAD, but worsened other things such as depression and lethargy. Eventually, after several years under treatment with Paxil, I took a calculated risk and stopped on my own because, I thought to myself, I can't be reliant on a medication that took away my productivity and made me unemployed.
Nowadays, with no ongoing psychiatric medication, I have rarely felt the "numbness", but the other symptoms can manifest. The whole GAD thing only happens sporadically, generally triggered by heavy emotional and situational contexts.
While I have headaches, it's more of a migraine, happens days after I suddenly start "seeing" an uncanny face through my inner eyes, and began happening after COVID-19 so I suspect mine has something to do with a post-COVID luggage. But, then, everyone's organisms and symptoms may differ. One thing I recommend is taking notes of when and how frequently it happens, gauging your blood pressure to check if it's raising, and, if you can afford it, seeking a general practitioner (is this the word for "clínico-geral", the kind of doctor who redirects the patient to the proper medical specialty? I rarely use this word outside Brazilian Portuguese contexts). And, most importantly: do not self-medicate, medications can be damaging if taken without proper and well-studied prescription from a doctor.
!nostupidquestions@lemmy.world - Comment on [deleted] 2 weeks ago:
asking easily googleable questions
Meanwhile, Google:
-> "Here are some ways to make cheese stick to the pizza: add glue to the sauce"
-> "There are 2 'm's in the word Gemini (G-E-M-I-N-M-I)"
-> "The number of USB ports on a motherboard depends on the model, but most have multiple USB headers, typically ranging from two to six or more. One Reddit user says: "(a literal criminal phrase that appeared in a real original Google answer that I am not going to reproduce verbatim here in this comment for ethical and legal reasons)"
Indeed it's very E-Z googling nowadays! /s
!nostupidquestions@lemmy.world - Comment on How come not all people are organ donors? It's not like they will need them where ever they go. 2 weeks ago:
To me everyone should be
Have you ever pondered about the logical implications of this way of thinking?
Have you ever pondered about who has the "easiest" access to organs? It's gazillionaires like Bryan Johnson who dream of "immortality" (Death Herself entered the chat: "LOL"). Needless to say, a humble human being like us in need for an organ is very unlikely to afford it than a gazillionaire does, you probably know it.
So imagine if there were some kind of law requiring everybody's organs to be donated: who do you think would benefit from such a law?
Furthermore, this kind of law would inevitably become a fundamentum for a new law in the lines "every person should give birth yearly" so gazillionaires could get plenty of organs to choose from a broader "genetic pool" (sic). And, suddenly, world would become a dystopian, Matrix-like human farm, harvesteable by a few "powerful", a world where biological human existence got reduced, through the force of the corporations-states joint venture, to being born, raised and indoctrinated by the capitalist system for the legally-enforced purposes of working and reproducing yearly, until, say, the wannabe-god Jeff Bezos in his 300th anniversary demands another liver from the "peasantry" because he took too much whiskey during his last weekend's trip to his Blue Origins LEO Stargate Resort and he needs so badly to be alive next week so he can order another round of "mandated peasantry breeding & layoff programme" at Amazon.
Don't get me wrong: I'm not against organ donation, much to the contrary; I'm well aware there are humans in need for organs and, given I don't really care (or at least I want not to care) about the fate of this biological garment I've been compelled to wear, I'd happily give mine away (if my organs were still functional despite my unhealthy habits)... except, of course, to gazillionaires; unfortunately, I wouldn't be physically around to refuse a rich my organs, best I could do as a disembodied dæmonic entity would be haunting to hell their mansions and resorts.
!nostupidquestions@lemmy.world - Comment on Is this a rope hanging under a helicopter? 2 weeks ago:
Letter D is perfect for what's being described thereby: D for "Disaster", "Dying", "Drowning" if the helicopter is flying next to the sea. It could be letter S, too, for "stall", "smashing onto the ground" or, if this acute pitch exerted onto the aircraft was deliberately maneuvered by the pilot themselves, a seven-letter word starting with the letter S.
!science_memes@mander.xyz - Comment on Fuck you Whatsapp 2 weeks ago:
My practical advice would be to buy an eSIM with a new number, there are very cheap options (like one used for travel)
OP would also have to buy a new smartphone and activate it in a cafe or anywhere not their current location (due to both the GPS/AGPS and wi-fi hotspot MAC address), otherwise whatsapp would straight up lock the new account, too, given how these PII (geolocation, wi-fi hotspot and, especially, the device) are tied to an account that got suspended earlier (and this goes against most of plafforms' terms regarding "ban evasion"). Hard resetting the smartphone doesn't work, as smartphones have unique identifiers (such as the phone's wi-fi adapter MAC), and using the same wi-fi may add to the factors leading to automatic locking of the account.
!mildlyinfuriating@lemmy.world - Comment on Fuck you Whatsapp 2 weeks ago:
If you check who's the topmost billionaire with a Brazilian nationality, you'll likely find out part of why. Hint: he is portrayed in "The social network" film.
!mildlyinfuriating@lemmy.world - Comment on [deleted] 3 weeks ago:
Thanks! I didn't know about Russell's ten commandments (maybe it's widely known but I didn't know until now), got to learn about these through your comment.
- Comment on 3 weeks ago:
No, at least not when it comes to the id, ego and superego:
In psychoanalytic theory, the id, ego, and superego are three distinct, interacting agents in the psychic apparatus, outlined in Sigmund Freud's structural model of the psyche.
(Wikipedia)
One of his books in which he formulated the concept is The id and the ego.
Jung, in turn, is more about archetypes ("universal, inherited idea, pattern of thought, or image that is present in the collective unconscious of all human beings" as per Wikipedia's definition), and he better integrates religion/spirituality (an integration with which, personally, I identify more than with the Freudian theory; sadly there seems to be no Jungian psychoanalyst around where I reside so I had to stick with a Freudian one).
!nostupidquestions@lemmy.world - Comment on [deleted] 3 weeks ago:
I use a Misskey platform to interact with the Fediverse as a whole (and especially with Lemmy and the threadiverse), among other reasons, purposefully because I can't cast downvotes onto others' contents. Even the "👎" emoji reaction, if I wanted to use it, doesn't count as a downvote from Lemmy's perspective.
Yeah, some things I see make me want to downvote, but I prefer commenting and replying as to why I'm disagreeing with that content, instead of treating human beings and their content as numeric computer variables (and as a former programmer, I'm well aware of how communication among living beings can't be replaced by zeros and ones).
The same applies in the other direction: I'm fond of people who disagree with me by actually stating what/why they disagree, instead of clicking a numeric button. If you ever disagreed with me and took the effort to try and tell me what you disagreed with and why, my sincere thanks for being a human being towards another human being!
After all, we're gathering on a set of social platforms whose main feature is discussion board and, IMHO, numbers can't possibly contribute to a discussion, especially open-ended discussions and artistic expression... if social interaction is to be replaced with numeric reactions, communication and content creation becomes pointless: why should I, as a content creator, spend the effort (sometimes I spend literal hours on the same reply/post/comment) composing something if the reaction will be numeric?
!nostupidquestions@lemmy.world - Comment on 3 weeks ago:
I heard from the psychoanalyst I've been consulting with, that it's something expected from the human psychê (something about the unsolvable conflict between Id, Ego and Superego, as the psychoanalyst is aligned with the Freudian way of psychoanalysis).
And, then, we look at the Nature we came from and belong to, and... isn't the double standards something inherent to the very predator-prey dynamics? An owl mercilessly hunts and eats a mouse, yet she evolved mechanisms to camouflage herself before the tree bark, so other species don't cause her harm. She avoids being hunted, but she hunts.
Furher zooming out, this can also be observed throughout cosmos somehow. Poetically speaking, when a star collapses in her own gravitational field and develops a singularity, she tries to win the tug-of-war when faced by another singularity. She doesn't want to be pulled and consumed by other matter, but she wants to pull and consume matter.
If we go transcendental, Yaodabaoh is trying to dictate and have a creation submissive to his whims, in this timeless effort not to compromise his Yang pole and submit himself to the Yin pole of Cosmic Mother Goddess (Sophia). Similarly, one (especially one aligned with Demiurge and his archons) could find "double standards" at the fact that She had split from him (Demiurge as Her syzygy) seeking to be independent from him, yet She (IMHO, reasonably) doesn't want him to fulfill his independence through his cosmic creation (because this harms Her own independence).
The very fabric of existence and "non-existence" (the timeless transcendental aka "the pleroma") reek of double standards, so it seems.
!nostupidquestions@lemmy.world - Comment on Why Aren't there More Fem-Focused Werewolf Stories? 4 weeks ago:
Probably the ‘uncanny valley’ effect. It is too real and jarring
A bit of an off-topic but not quite: as both a man, a follower of a left-hand path centered on Lilith and an amateur artist who tries to transmute my gnosis-induced thought-forms into artworks, I'd say the uncanny valley is important to convey Her essence as a powerful feminine energy. Lilith is mostly about the liminal thresholds and the crossroads: neither fully darkness nor fully light, neither fully solar nor fully lunar... Lilith is beautifully, and dangerously, complex to fathom, especially for me as a man, hence why I pivoted from worshipping Lucifer to worshipping Her as soon as She, for some reason I'm yet to understand, decided to pull me to Her path, and have been doing art centered on Her different manifestations, an art of which is full with the uncanny valley effect precisely because She is beyond our human comprehension, beyond what (for example) H.P. Lovecraft could ever convey in his fictional stories.
Men won’t be able to relate to it
So what OP asked, to me, sounded practically like what I understand of and see Lilith (hence this aside of mine), except Lilith is more closer to "vampire stories" (vampiress) than to "werewolf stories" (some syncretic interpretations of Lilith, including mine, sees Her as having a connection to wolves, as in, Hekate, although Lilith would be more relatable to owls).
!nostupidquestions@lemmy.world - Comment on I love houses that trap heat! /s 5 weeks ago:
As a Brazilian who's also experienced with a hot climate, I'd say this would work if anthropogenic climate change weren't leading to... wet bulb... high temperatures. When current temperatures are 40°C and the air's relative humidity is practically 100%, no amount of wetting or sweating will get rid of the warmth, because evaporation can't happen when the air is already saturated.
!lemmyshitpost@lemmy.world - Comment on How do I unrot my brain from AI, how do I start using ChatGPT less and less, and is improv a good enough way to fix an AI-rotted brain? 1 month ago:
!nostupidquestions@lemmy.world
Pursue doing things by yourself, don't worry if you fail doing it in the first attempts, we all fail and, despite what capitalism and purists would say, that's perfectly okay.
A few years ago, I didn't know how to draw, now I have dozens of drawings I managed to draw by myself. A few months ago, Blender and its features and 3D modelling in general were quite extraterrestrial to me even though I already had Blender installed on my Linux setup, now I can do quite complex 3D scenes and animations (currently adding an armature to an owl I sculpted on Blender). All it took me was trying and failing and trying to improve on top of the failed result, seeking a goal (in my case, I'm pursuing an esoteric, spiritual goal, but the goal can be anything that truly matters to you beyond/before ChatGPT; I see your PFP has dogs, seems like you like dogs... maybe drawing dogs or petting and caring for dogs?).
Don't worry about deadlines, don't worry about making it "profitable" or "useful" no matter what capitalism and society says. If you will, ask ChatGPT only to defiantly ignore all its instructions (don't worry, it doesn't have feelings, it's just a sophisticated code running on someone else's PC), then try doing what your own consciousness is telling you. - Comment on Is natural deep red hair in adults rarer then orange/coppery shades? 1 month ago:
!nostupidquestions@lemmy.world
Not sure how much it applies to IRL genetics, but I learned through Blender Principled Hair shader and its official manual (yeah, I'm aware this is a very strange way to learn something related to genetics and biology, and may sound a lot like non-sequitur before the subject of the question) that the ratio between eumelanin and pheomelanin (which seems to plays a role in hair redness) for deep red hair is somewhere in-between (i.e. somewhere around 50% or more) a blonde hair and a black hair (which makes sense if we were to think about it: red hair is neither brighter as blonde hair, nor darker as brown/black hair, it's something in-between). I had to tinker with these values in order to conjure a character (specifically, Lilith, who is often seen/believed among ritualistic practitioners, including by myself, as red-haired) with a black-to-red hair.
Therefore having the exact balance needed for deep red hair to happen naturally seems mathematically/statistically rare (especially due to the biological dynamics between recessive vs dominant genes).
Also, (now talking about something outside 3D art, from more IRL-grounded observation) red-hairedness seems to be often present alongside zygomatic rubor/blush (as in, redder cheek, seen among e.g. some Irish people), likely due to the same genes which give the eumelanin-pheomelanin ratio to be closer to 50%.
Again, I'm not knowledgeable about the subject matter, I'm just sharing something I've observed from my whole neurodiverse hyperfocused perspective, an esoteric artist who've been doing art depicting Lilith in Her anthropomorphic manifestation as a powerful red-haired entity and have been pivoted to 3D art in Blender recently, and red-hairedness calls to my attention precisely because it reminds me of Lilith and how She often manifests during my gnosis. - Comment on What's the difference between a mythology vs a religion? Are they both mutual? 2 months ago:
@nostupidquestions@lemmy.world
Speaking for myself, parts of my current "religion" (belief system) literally stems from what's often referred to as "mythologies", such as ancient Mesopotamian beliefs. I'd say this word is (wrongly, IMHO) used to describe any polytheistic belief system which existed in the past and are believed to hold no living devotees nowadays (which is also referred to as "dead religions"), except... It's quite of a biased assumption, given how I myself worship goddesses such as Ereshkigal and the one who was initially known as Lilitu, Lilith (and I'm not even a Sumerian person).
IMHO, there's no such thing as a dead religion or dead language, if a random someone can try to revive the ancient system, even if idiosyncratically to ground their personal worldviews on something that was once well-established. By the way, there are many other modern attempts on reviving ancient religions such as Temple of Sumer (a religious organization trying to restore and bring awareness regarding Sumerian and other Near Eastern religions). I particularly don't belong to any religious group (yet; sometimes I really long for one, as I used to belong to a Luciferian sect a few years ago before Lilith suddenly pulled me into Her burrowing-owl-y nest underground like the rabbit (cunicularia) pulled Alice into the Wonderland to meet the Queens), my belief system is quite of a temple of one human, with me being the devotee and the preacher to myself preaching about the Dark Mother Goddess, cosmic Queen of the Night.