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LowExperience2368@aussie.zone ⁚6⁩ ⁚months⁩ ago

Word vomit and mental health incoming, feel free to skip

My sister told me today that my ex seemed fake the way he acted towards me. I agreed with her. It sucks that none of it was real except the love that I felt for him. Also that he seems gay. Friends also said he seemed gay. That explains a lot and would make sense.

Even though I forgive myself for staying with someone who didn’t love me, I’ve had too many coffees today and lost my three day no crying streak. I logically know that the past has happened and it isn’t worth dwelling on it. I logically know that I’m better off without the relationship, but the heart side of me kinda collapsed today. That is okay. Healing is not linear. He’s definitely not sitting there crying over me, he’s probably forgotten me by now. I just feel like I have no direction in life right now and everything feels pointless and bleak. I’m scared and I don’t know if I’m going to make it through the rest of the year. But the fact that I have no direction or clue in life really means that there are opportunities out there that I can’t see yet.

That therapy appointment couldn’t come sooner. Just have to hold on for two more weeks.

Some better things:

Sorry for spilling all the negative emotions.

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