ApathyTree
@ApathyTree@lemmy.dbzer0.com
- Comment on 3 days ago:
While I still don’t know what that thing is, this is much better. The edit makes it look like some VR headset holder or something.
- Comment on Maturing 5 days ago:
Yeah, thats exactly what i want to avoid, things that are good enough that even without being addictive, i want them. I wont even grow poppies for poppy tea because I’m afraid i will become low-grade addicted to it as a result of simply not being in constant pain for a change (fucked up thing to consider, but true as someone with chronic pain). My mom made me promise to keep her oxy after she passed because it was much harder for me to get pain treatment than it should be, but it just made me throw up (same it did to her, but we assumed it was the cancer), so i gave it to a friend who needed it. I know myself and i -really- like escape. It used to be books, as a kid, but now its all sorts of things. Because i can.
Mostly i want things with low addiction (physical or psychological) risk, ideally also somewhat beneficial, and no or very low chance of bad experience, because my brain does that anyway. Also kinda has to be fairly easy to get without a shady middle-man, because i don’t know people and buying shit on tor isn’t appealing to me at all. The hardest thing I’ve done was extacy cut with meth, and i listened to my druggy ex and boofed it (our slang for bum-hole administration, tho i learned later i should have shoved it in my vagina instead, thats way way better for drug absorption due to the sheer quantity of blood vessels and the moist environment, to the point that it used to he a common medical application in hospital). Honestly, i loved it, and would exist that way forever if i could. And thats the problem. I’m glad i don’t have easy access to it now. Id like to use it again in controlled therapy settings, as long as they’ve got some good beats and highlighters on hand. But as a result of using it, techno gives me anxiety now. Used to really love it. So even in mild ways the best of things can fuck with you.
I don’t really struggle with drugs other than alcohol (and thats a weird one because i just fall out of use, same as weed, after months or years of heavy use), but thats mostly because i don’t use anything else particularly addictive because i don’t trust myself. Actually, because i know what I’d do. I seem to fall out of alcohol use when my mental state improves to the point i don’t need a crutch. But until then, its bad. Ngl. And weed just stops being fun periodically, so sometimes i take years-long breaks even though it’s good for my pain.
Im super interested in drugs, though. Like genuinely id love to try them all with no risk. I used to read bluelight just to imagine how it felt. I want VR to work for me because that feels like a mild trip (makes me hella nauseated, so no dice until holodeck exists).
Im glad you’ve come out the other end of it reasonably intact, sounds like :) And thank you for sharing your experiences with me, for my edification :) i genuinely appreciate it. If you want to share more, even about other substances, id be interested in reading it, to live vicariously through you :)
- Comment on Maturing 5 days ago:
Im going to save this but it sounds like those aren’t just various strains of mushies? and idk if id go out of my way to obtain drugs i cant cultivate myself. I like the idea of mushrooms and i have spores and stuff, just not motivated to grow a new batch.
Ive seen extracts of mushies, called “crystals of the gods” which is a dumb name but the only extraction method ive found, and thats what I want to try, because its supposed to completely get rid of the body problems associated with it, though not the enhancement of your natural mood (in my case mostly anxiety)
Im kinda afraid of human-made or refined drugs, tbh. What if i like them?
- Comment on Maturing 5 days ago:
Solid, I’ll keep that in mind, thanks!
- Comment on Maturing 6 days ago:
I’ve never done acid but I did shrooms twice and haven’t had the balls to try again.
The first time was ok, but the second time, come-up anxiety was so intense I spent the entire trip throwing up, shitting my brains out, and having a panic attack. I can’t do that again, but I’m still full of anxiety, so… nope.
Someday id like to try an extract, I’ve heard the mushroom itself is where the anxiety and gastric discomfort comes from, but yeah I’m just not really motivated in case thats wrong.
- Comment on Anon Promotes Shrimp Farming 2 weeks ago:
Yeah fungus, but also the sludge sometimes forms a crust on the top inch or so of whatever you dump it on, especially if you do it repeatedly or your water is super sludgy (like my turtle filter produces some crazy sludge). It can also end up with salt buildup, not necessarily sodium salt, but just any sort of residue that builds up and crystallizes. An occasional soak and rinse will clear all that stuff out, and leave you with reasonably clean coir once more.
As for the fungus, that’s super normal, but if you want to avoid it potentially being a problem, you can pick up some soil amendment that contains beneficial fungus (the sort that works with plant roots to increase nutrient and moisture absorption, rather than trying to consume the plant) to outcompete the nasty stuff you don’t want.
- Comment on Anon Promotes Shrimp Farming 2 weeks ago:
If you pick up coco coir (an inert medium for hydroponics when plants need a bit more rooting space) you can dump that sludge right over top to water whatever plant you have growing in it.
If it ends up getting kinda gross, take it outside and hose a bunch of water through it to rinse it, good to continue. But mostly it just causes the coir to break down a bit faster than it otherwise would, so this is basically like adding compost continuously.
Doesn’t work for every plant, but does work for a lot of them! I have potatoes in such a setup right now, and it’s pretty swanky.
- Comment on Is it actually healthy for people to have a place to confess things anonymously? 4 weeks ago:
Sure, but if nobody knows who anyone is, how do you know who to let in?
- Comment on With regards to cutlery, do you prefer a spoon or a fork for eating cake? 4 weeks ago:
Cake is finger food. I like feeling my food whenever possible before it goes in my face hole. It adds to the experience to me, especially licking my fingers after. Very… natural feeling. Also a lot easier, usually. Social norms be damned, I’m not stabbing leafs with metal spikes, I’m picking them up with my monkey hands like evolution intended.
But more important than my love of tactile sensations, I’m just not huge on refined sugar. Usually 1-2 tbsp for my ~6 cups of coffee, if I have coffee, and that’s it, so cake is well too much sugar for me to eat any faster than pinch by pinch without getting queasy. Might as well play with it while I’m there. Icing usually has a great texture (tho the increased use of palm oil in place of actual quality oil/butter leaves an oily film on my fingers -and mouth- that I don’t care for), and the variety of cake options are great to explore digitally as well, prior to orally. I find angelfood fascinating.
- Comment on Is it actually healthy for people to have a place to confess things anonymously? 4 weeks ago:
If it’s using an expiring session-based anonymous “account” for interactions, how would you ban someone? Or allow rooms to be restricted, for that matter?
Like I like the idea, I just don’t understand how both things can be true.
- Comment on relatable 4 weeks ago:
The sleep with me podcast works similarly, he modulates his tone and volume such that it’s nearly impossible to actually follow when it’s set quiet, but you pick up just enough to keep your brain from thinking.
- Comment on Wanted: Sanitation workers. Existential hangups a plus. 1 month ago:
That’s why most of them these days refer to themselves as sanitation engineers or whatever else. Sounds better to the uneducated and judgmental masses, and is more accurate anyway.
Current society puts so much emphasis on appearances and not nearly enough on what jobs are actually vital to social harmony. Trash collection and other sanitation jobs -should- be high-prestige high-paid jobs, simply because of how crappy they are to do and how indispensable they are to social functionality. There is no universe in which being a sportsball coach is more vital to society than sanitation work, yet sportsball coaches at almost any level are paid far better and have far more prestige. Instead we collectively treat sanitation workers like shit, mock them for doing a dirty job we certainly wouldn’t be willing to do, without which we would all die quite horribly from infections and disease…
Me ex’s dad was the mechanic for the city dump. Not just collecting trash but crawling under and fixing the very dirty trucks used to collect it. He was an odd duck and would salvage all sorts of stuff, but his very gross very dirty job kept 25,000 people from living in filth. That’s super important. Especially since we’ve largely forgotten how to live without constantly generating waste.
- Comment on Western Digital is already sold out of hard drives for all of 2026 — chief says some long-term agreements for 2027 and 2028 already in place 1 month ago:
I rebuilt my pc just a few weeks before the ram explosion (replaced cpu, mobo, ram, and cooling), only thing it doesn’t have upgraded is graphics card, but the one it has is …… eh… ok for now until I can afford to pick something else up. Also definitely glad to have made that decision. And probably will be with my storage choice too, once it’s hindsight. I just hate spending money.
So yeah, thanks, that helps. :)
- Comment on Western Digital is already sold out of hard drives for all of 2026 — chief says some long-term agreements for 2027 and 2028 already in place 1 month ago:
Heh, yeah, I’m assuming hard drives are going to do the same thing graphics cards did… get wildly expensive and never come back down, even if they could. With that in mind, this sounds like a good option.
Also I currently have no backups, and this much extra space fixes that handily. So it was sort of needed and something I was considering anyway.
I’m trying really really hard to convince myself I made the right choice here. 😅
- Comment on Western Digital is already sold out of hard drives for all of 2026 — chief says some long-term agreements for 2027 and 2028 already in place 1 month ago:
I just picked up 40tb for exactly this reason. I was already considering an upgrade, but was planning like 16 tb. But with this news… Might as well get it while I can at prices I was expecting to pay anyway, even if it’s more than I really had budgeted for it…
(I got refurbished drives, so this wasn’t like several grand or anything, came to $570 on Newegg for surveillance drives)
- Comment on Performance enhancement 1 month ago:
I know, I was making a joke
:)
- Comment on Performance enhancement 1 month ago:
So they are tripping balls during fitting?
- Comment on Yum 3 months ago:
Are these things tiny or is there just a weirdly large bowl for display to make them look like cereal for… reasons…?
- Comment on God's Property 3 months ago:
Does that include the 8 up by “moves” in the preceding paragraph?
I assume the gilded superscript numbers are verse numbers, I know at least that much of biblical format, but then there’s that 8.
- Comment on God's Property 3 months ago:
What’s with the weird italics? I’m not well versed on that sort of thing, but linguistically it makes no sense that I can see…?
- Comment on We wouldn't listen, anyway. 3 months ago:
Cats don’t need to ask questions about the world because they are scientists and will figure it out for themselves if they don’t get shown the answers. They know where the snacks come from, at least in regards to their own world, that’s why they come running when they hear the package.
They knock stuff over to see what happens. They meow for treats to see what happens. They sit on your face to wake you up to see what happens. They get into things just to see what’s in them.
And when the result is something they want, they try it again to see if the result is consistent. Reproducible.
That’s why the best way to get a cat to stop doing something they do to you is to ignore them. They meow to wake you up for food? They do that because it’s been working. Stop responding, and the behavior will also stop.
- Comment on We can play that game too 4 months ago:
Right, and you get why this is impossible for most people? That was my original point. Most people, even if they want to do this, can’t. It’s unaffordable.
The point is that your suggestion that someone is free to do this is just very much not the case.
- Comment on We can play that game too 4 months ago:
Ok, but if your plan is to live solo forever and not interact with society, you’d basically need to pay for it upfront. That means you need a lot of money all at once, otherwise you’ll still need income, which limits the ability you have to be separate from society.
- Comment on We can play that game too 4 months ago:
Yes I know, I’ve looked at them. That’s how I know they are expensive.
- Comment on We can play that game too 4 months ago:
They’re free to go live in the wilderness, with no roads, no fire department, no water or electricity, no services whatever, and find out how much they’re actually benefiting from our collective.
Where?
This is what I want to do, but I can’t afford to buy land on which to do it (and not just any land is useful for this either, it needs to be capable of supporting people before you can count it). Land enough to support a small homestead isn’t cheap, and zoning/local laws often restricts what you can do on it. So for example you may buy land, but not be allowed to drill a well, even if you have the means and knowledge to do so. Or if you buy land you can afford, you may not be allowed to build a permanent structure on it at all.
You’ll get kicked out (and possibly fined) of both state and national parks in the US if they find you “permanently camping”, which they are likely to do since there are frequently people out there. The only other option is squatting on private property. If you get caught before whatever time passes for squatters laws to take effect, you lose everything you’ve built up.
I mean don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind paying for things I’ll never use because it makes society as a whole better. All I’m saying is opting out of living in a society is nearly impossible for most people even if they are ok with not having all the stuff society funds like roads and fire control.
- Comment on Engineer proves that Kohler’s smart toilet cameras aren’t very private 4 months ago:
This one seems more fitting.
- Comment on Do you cheat in video games? 4 months ago:
I would consider dev mode in rimworld to be cheating in a “technically it is” sort of way… spawning infant thralls that are then adopted by my colony, or spawning whatever activity site I choose are definitely not how the game is supposed to work. The mods are sort of also cheating I guess, tho most of them are content heavy… there are definitely several hacky mods in my list, like minify everything.
But while it’s cheating in a technical sense, it doesn’t impact anyone and it’s teaching me a lot about how video games function, which I find more entertaining than completing hard-coded objectives. It’s the first game I ever put a lot of mods on, and between troubleshooting and testing stuff, it’s been nearly as illuminating as rendering lag that adds each texture layer individually starting from low poly (my ps4 is having some major lag issues I’m trying to sort out, and horizon zero dawn is fascinating for this rendering issue, so so many layers! And then to realize it usually gets processed in real time! 🤯)
- Comment on Rush hour traffic in Utrecht, Netherlands 4 months ago:
Thanks :) I see other countries and how they accommodate people who can’t or won’t or don’t want to drive, and I seriously die a bit inside because solarpunk could be everywhere, it could have, and should have, been here! And instead it’s only places I can never live (too disabled and/or unskilled to emigrate) with the places I can live being wildly opposed to making life even the slightest bit better.
At the same time, I’m genuinely thrilled that that’s a thing at least somewhere. Jealousy notwithstanding, I’m intensely happy for areas that aren’t actively hostile to non-car transit. It all has to start somewhere to prove it works. Trickle-down solarpunk :p
- Comment on Getting in on the library craze with the Reading Rainbow guy 4 months ago:
My local thrift shops are packed with books for stupid cheap. A wide variety, too.
Maybe try that and have a happy medium? Not buying something new, but saving something from a landfill.
- Comment on Rush hour traffic in Utrecht, Netherlands 4 months ago:
Oh yeah no I’ve been in that camp for a long while. I’m actively furious that my state had an approved plan for high speed rail like 15 years ago connecting all the major cities in the area, and connecting to the national line. And then some asshole republican came in and scrapped it even though it was already fully funded and ready to go.
It would be active right now if that hadn’t happened. Instead I have to drive 2.5 hrs to see my friend, 2 hours to go to my specialist doctor, and the same 2 hours in the opposite direction to get to the national line. All of those trips were supposed to be under 45 min on the train.
So so fucking salty about it. I fucking hate driving. I hate having to pay to maintain a vehicle. I hate that car infrastructure means walking is almost impossible. I’d love to ride a bike or bus locally, but the infrastructure doesn’t sufficiently exist for either to be practical in my area (I’m not riding my bike on the road. People here would actively try to kill me.)
