IM NOT AN EDGELORD OK ive been borderline raped before just sometimes i wish it would have been something more long term idk how to explain it. me being sexually assaulted made me feel desirable even though i hated it but it makes me feel like a whore at the same time, was i not pure enough to be molested long term wow it sounds horrible but i have no idea how to articulate my feelings…anyways smell like sweatpiss rn yay awesome so im gonna take my second shower of the day yippieee
There’s a kink called consensual nonconsent you should look into, that might be your thing. Stay away from people who aren’t well versed in consent how communication. There’s lots of dangerous and irresponsible people in the bdsm world.
refreeze@lemmy.world 3 hours ago
This is not the place for this sort of histrionic attention seeking. Find a professional therapist to help treat your disorder.