There are bad trips. Sometimes, yes, ‘bad’ trips are just an expression of one’s mental state, exacerbed. You can look into it, ponder and maybe do some introspection because it is necessary.
But sometimes bad trips are just bad trips. The drugs just hit too hard, or you’re not prepared for it and you go spiralling down an infinite staircase of pain and anguish. But you have nothing to gain from it, except the memory of a bad experience.
i_need_your_bones@piefed.social 3 weeks ago
Nope. Bad trips exist. I was sat laying down in my bed the entire time crying whiley mind was spiraling down shitty paths that after the trip made zero sense. I was disguested with myself. I couldn’t make myself move. Not locked in but zero motivation. Like that feeling when you need to pee but stay in bed because you don’t want to move.
I tried to cheer myself up think logically about the shit going through my head. It made it much worse. I wanted to die. About three and a half later I finally got out of bed and into the shower to cry. I remembered everything I thought of and that I hatedyself but it all wasn’t true. Completely illogical.
What did I gain from this? Nothing. You can say whatever you want to pretend there’s some underlying massive rebelation or positive that trip should have given me but I reject that whole heartedly. It just made me feel awful for about 5 hours fucked me up for about a week and made me hesitant do mushrooms again.
scrion@lemmy.world 3 weeks ago
So, what did your integration look like? Did you talk to a professional about this? That’s the part most people seem to leave out, and without that, well…