Madzielle
@Madzielle@lemmy.dbzer0.com
- Comment on Anon is a paramedic 3 days ago:
My husband, for a number of years, only stayed going for his cat first, and his father second. He happens to have a good relationship with his father, and recognizes he is lucky in this.
Im glad he held out so I could meet him and love him.
Live for whatever you need to, because life is long and there is always potential for better days.
- Comment on Anon is a paramedic 3 days ago:
I went through this with my mom. In one of our last conversations, I mentioned that years ago, when I was 18 and lived with her briefly, I took like fourty of her seroquel pills to try and kill myself. “Remember when I slept for three days straight?” And told her what I remembered of that time. Instead of her saying, “oh wow I didnt know that happened” and empathizing or something, she just denied it ever happened, got mad at me and called me a liar.
I never spoke to her again. I dont remember our last words but this one one of the staws for me.
The last time I spoke to my step father, the real abuser, was when I was 16. Letting go of that mess was easy.
Sometimes healing, or “forgiveness” (I hate that word) is in letting go. My Bio dad/mom were both raised pretty fucked up, especially my bio dad, not dissimilar from what ur father went through. I mourn his childhood, but not his death (he died) nor who he was as an adult.
Stay being good to yourself, I hope you find peace and healing in letting go <3
- Comment on Anon is a paramedic 3 days ago:
So much in life can change. Life is long. A decade away could be a whole new life for you, one where you no longer feel this way. Even if you feel this is never going to happen for you, all I can say is I felt the same. Then decades pass and I worked on every part of my life until I only had kind people around me. I struggled with suicide ideation from 8 years old to 36/37 years old. And then, one day without me noticing, it just stopped. Because I kicked all the mean folk out, and surrounded my life with good. I learned to accepted myself, flaws and all. There is always tomorrow.
I fed the squirrls peanuts I bought just for them this morning. Its love. Give love, get love. Life gonna beat the shit outta you, but one day it could be better. I have one friend, and three close family members, one of which I popped out myself so idk if that counts. Less people, but good people.
My step father would been happy I offed myself, I never wanted to give him satisfaction. Go for spite, find ur spite and draw hope.
I dont hate you, so go on and please keep exsisting.
- Comment on Anon is a paramedic 3 days ago:
Cherish that fact.
- Comment on I'd like to change my last name and want suggestions 3 days ago:
Its odd both the last names Winter and Shaw appear in my bloodline, though I carry my step fathers last name not these.
I too have wanted to change my last name, and have thought about it often. Id actually go back to my Great, great, grabdmothers name before she married, I think, but I dont know.
Shaw imo is ugly, but common. Winter or Winters is nice.
- Comment on What is a game you can’t understand why its so popular ? 1 week ago:
I used to play, noting there are a few different play styles for the game. I liked building, and spent most of my time doing as such. Then once done with the build, Id have idea of who would live there, and then make them and move them in. Play the people in live mode for some time, a short time, and move on to the next build. Sometimes id have a favorite character, and Id play them for a longer while.
Its just fun, its an escape of my own situation, and ive always loved architecture and design. Some folks like making big families, there are generational challanges you can do, I only ever got to third gen though, but some folks will go for a long time. My goals were always build my own structure and peoples for evert lot on every map.
- Comment on Anon watches redditors talk about bodycount 1 week ago:
im sorry youre so misreable in life.
- Comment on Anon watches redditors talk about bodycount 1 week ago:
tell me thw source!?
Willful ignorance isnt cute
- Comment on Anon watches redditors talk about bodycount 1 week ago:
This …line of thinking is why my step father wouldnt let me or my sister shower while on the rag in our teens. He had some old ass info, ignored doctors, and my and my sister suffered at the hands of his misinformation. He wouldnt even buy us tampons or pads and we used paper towels.
ita okay to be wrong, but its not okay to spread that info. it can harm women.
- Comment on Anon watches redditors talk about bodycount 2 weeks ago:
Youre not right about this. Im sorry. Some women do douche, but most doctors will advise against using anything like this. Mild soap externally is all that is recomended by most Obgyns.
- Comment on Anon watches redditors talk about bodycount 2 weeks ago:
no
- Comment on Anon watches redditors talk about bodycount 2 weeks ago:
Seriously Jenna… get it together
- Comment on Anon is Arthur Schopenhauer 5 weeks ago:
I read it on virtual library, thank you though.
I feel this way about lawn mowers. Id probably hate whip crackinh too. Fun read
- Comment on Anon is Arthur Schopenhauer 5 weeks ago:
why do I have to log in to read something “free online”? ahh…
- Comment on ‘They want to keep denying us our rights’: workers in Vermont’s $5.4bn dairy industry fight for basic labor protections 1 month ago:
One of, if not the largest dairy/cheese company in Vermont.
- Comment on ‘They want to keep denying us our rights’: workers in Vermont’s $5.4bn dairy industry fight for basic labor protections 1 month ago:
Not Likely to happen, but I’d love to see Cabot become Employee Owned
- Comment on Portal 2: Community Edition goes open beta on April 17 1 month ago:
that’s cool
- Comment on What would you do? 1 month ago:
you said drama club was pointless :(
- Comment on how things become science 1 month ago:
do it again
- Comment on Does having a child with someone give you any legal right to their property? 1 month ago:
My (adopted) step father got custody over my mother for my siblings and I. My mother was on disability, so we got SSI checks (like $40 bucks a month per kid, in the late 1990’s.
- Comment on What was the first game you ever bought ? 2 months ago:
I really think it was that set of three games, Half Life, Portal, and whatever the other one was.
Where did I get that first xbox 360? I think itbwas given to me or traded… I dont remember, but I think I went out and got Portal as my first ever game purchase.
- Comment on Folk Emerging: stone age nomadic 4X strategy, demo out 2 months ago:
hey sorry! So, First impressions, I like it.
I was very tired the day I booted it up, and didnt have the mental energy. Ive not gotten back to it yet. But I will. I really like the idea and I did have fun for the 30 mins I played.
Ive been waiting to give it a more honest go before responding, Ive just not gotten there yet, sorry. Ill be back for it, promise :)
- Comment on Is giving only formula long term "healthy" for a baby? 2 months ago:
I nursed my son and got Mastitis. The doctor told me not to stop nursing woth that boob, and to keep using so it didnt reduce supply! I can still wince at the pain. Holy moly
- Comment on Anon is terminally lonely 2 months ago:
For me it did
- Comment on Anon is terminally lonely 2 months ago:
ypu can do both
- Comment on Explain it like I'm 5: Why is everyone on speakerphone in public? 2 months ago:
Ive done this twice, but most recently,
I was in a doctor’s waiting room where an older fella is brainrot scrolling videos. I’m trying to read my book and ignore it, but the sounds are so annoying. So, I as politely ax I can, turn to him and ask, “Sir, Im sorry to bother you, it’s a bit loud, do you think you can turn it down?” He snaps at me, “Ma’am”, he fucking ma’med me, “Ma’am, my volume is only at half, it’s fine”. I said, “Oh yeah? Bet, mine too” and hit play on the Suicide Silence (deathcore) I queued up.
The first time I did this, the person pulled out headphones immediately (maybt They Art is Murder works better), This guy kept going, so I placed my phone on the floor in front of me and pretended(tried) to read my book until I got called.
Fire with Fire
- Comment on What should we actually turn our aggression towards? 2 months ago:
I remember learning about DuPont, goodness, more than a decade ago?
Im anti consumerous. I dont buy platics that are easily avoidable, I cook with steel, wood, and cast iron, my tupperware is all glass. I buy spices/beans/graims in bulk at the co-op. I havnt used amazon in years, walmart I avoid like the plauge. By this I mean, avoiding plastics basically. I try and feed myself and my family homecooked meals from scratch always. My Kid (anyone for that matter) gets second hand or locally sourced gifts. I do with less, I am poor. I practice gardening though im not very good.
Most of these giant chemical companies are evil. they polluted the mississippi river, we had acid rain in the 80’s and regulation fixed it. They are now undoing the regulations.
I been mad for decades. I get so mad when the general populace continues to use these products from companies who dont give a fuck about their emoloyees nor theyre consumers. Money wins, and its digusting.
years ago I went to a dinner party. A southern girl was dating my friend. A lovely person, but, if we set aside the meal she prepared had not a single veggie, her teflon pans were all peeling. like, if you made something in the pan, it looked like you added cracked pepper but didnt. Horrible. We were both pregnant. I used being pregnant (nausea) as an excuse not to eat as everyone else did.
I changed many many habits whike learning about all this. Keeo learning, change your buying habits, and try to educate folks when appropriate.
- Comment on Folk Emerging: stone age nomadic 4X strategy, demo out 2 months ago:
trying it right now!
- Comment on Avocado. Is it really so untasty or I am doing something wrong? 2 months ago:
I always mash it with salt, pepper, and cayenne pepper, and touch of lime juice.
the add it to eggs or sandwiches or tacos or something.
- Comment on I just want juice, is that so much to ask? 2 months ago:
shit says copywright 2023… how old is that juice?