He may be sincere in his apology, but I’m so sorry you experienced that from your father. The things our parents say tend to stick around a while in our heads (my egg donor said “you’re just like your father!” And slapped me when I replied “good!” lol, I’ll never forget), but know that YOU ARE NOT A LOSER!!! no one here would ever say or think that about you, because it’s untrue! You are nowhere near to being a loser and your dad should spend the rest of his life making it up to you imo.

We love you!