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pixeltree@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 weeks agoJust because I want to die doesn’t mean I should drag friends and family down with me
Stressing them the hell out about my well-being just makes life worse for them and piles guilt on me
If/when I do kill myself I want none of them to know it was acutely that bad because then no one can blame themselves for not doing anything to stop it
Letting anyone that close to me would purely be doing them a massive disservice
x00za@lemmy.dbzer0.com 2 weeks ago
My brother killed himself. I wish he actually had talked with the people around him. I talked to him everyday and I didn’t even know he was feeling that way.
pixeltree@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 weeks ago
Yeah, I know my view of reality isn’t accurate. Doesn’t make things easier to handle but it’s why I’m still handling them. At the worst of times I’m just living for the sake of other people which while it keeps me here can also be really frustrating – it’s like other people are holding themselves hostage against my nonexistence. I do talk about it with some friends that are already that close. I honestly kind of credit one of them with saving my life in June, though she doesn’t know it. It just feels like life keeps pulling blocks from the jenga tower that I am and there’s not many left before I collapse.
x00za@lemmy.dbzer0.com 2 weeks ago
You don’t have to. It’s exactly the point I was trying to make.
Anyways, I feel for you. But I often recommend going out and hanging out with friends over professional help. Nothing ever gets better if we wait for it.
I’m sorry I can’t really help you.