I felt this with some of the dads at my old workplace. Hearing them having to leave on time to go watch a game or going to a 9 day fortnight so they could spend more time with their kids. I kinda teared up for a bit thinking about how my dad never bothered. If he picked me up he was often late and I once spent 90 minutes waiting on the kerb (in the day before mobiles). The only time he ever came for an accomplishment of mine - the highest one I ever had - he made it all about himself and was a total embarrassment.
It must hit a lot harder as a man. Hugs
Baku@aussie.zone â¨7⊠â¨months⊠ago
I feel this so, so hard. I can usually ignore things in real life, but I donât watch family movies or shows very much because they make me feel the same way, and if I ever do something or have an experience that feels like my idea of normalcy I end up in a euphoric like state for a few hours before crashing really hard and ending up really sad for the next few days
just_kitten@aussie.zone â¨7⊠â¨months⊠ago
I think you deserve all the hugs in the world for having to feel that way đŤ Thatâs heartbreaking. I know you canât do anything about how it all is and youâre unbelievably bright and level-headed and observant for all youâve been through, but I hope so much you do find your own family when you become independent and get some of those happy family vibes in your real life. The physical feeling of belonging and security is absolutely unmatched. May you get to experience that for real with good people who will be there for you :D
Seagoon_@aussie.zone â¨7⊠â¨months⊠ago
so many super hugs
I get that feeling from ânormalcyâ too, then I see the dysfunctional fam and have to tone down my normal.
Baku@aussie.zone â¨7⊠â¨months⊠ago
Thanks sea, I appreciate it
Gibsonisafluffybutt@aussie.zone â¨7⊠â¨months⊠ago
Iâm the same with any family related media. It just hurts. I know about that euphoric state youâre talking about. For me, they happen when I succeed at something Iâve been working hard at. I feel really good for a while, then the thoughts of âwish I had a family (thatâs average) to celebrate withâ.
All my victories are silent.
I lie to people when ask me about my family. I made up a story about how they are all overseas. Stops the weird vibe that happens when you tell the truth.