This is really interesting to me, I kind of feel a little sorry for you, but given that you don’t know any different, lack of sexual drive is completely normal to you it seems. That is so alien to me. I wake up absolutely desperate to orgasm and equally desperate to make my husband ejaculate (this is my thing and really really advances me towards orgasm). When he is home (which is about 70% of the time) I make him cum every morning when we wake up and then either he makes me cum or I do, when he isn’t there, I look at porn and orgasm at least once, sometimes twice, before I get out of bed. I have gotten out of bed without cumming about 10 or 15 times in the entire time I have been masturbating.