Even if you had done everything perfectly you would still have some manufactured regrets. Our minds cling to āif iād justā because weāre not allowed to howl at the void any more
Comment on Discussion Thread š© Tuesday 24 March 2026
melbaboutown@aussie.zone āØ1ā© āØmonthā© ago
Usually I buy the 100 packs of generic black tea bags but Iām having some Earl Grey tea as a treat (from one of the little 10 packs).
I got a lift to Kmart for new earbuds and checked out the tubs⦠the different sizes donāt nest properly, the smaller one was too tall to allow the outer lid to go on. Even without the insulating layers of straw adding to the height.
Maybe Iāll see what the big green shed offers, or if I can make something work with the miscellaneous tubs I have. Though theyāre not black to hold in heat and arenāt uv safe. Cutting them will be interesting because I have a mini saw and Stanley knife but no blowtorch or drill. I just saw a pair of fuzzy buns wander past so that means he does not go home when it rains.
Otherwise I donāt know what else to do. I bought some books from the op shop but have been unable to concentrate on reading even though I used to be a big reader. Maybe Iāll go learn a random skill off youtube. idk.
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Things got really bad recently, Iām being referred to grief counselling and am trying to stay busy but am dying inside. Everything reminds me of my deeply loved Melbcat and Iām swinging between regrets that I didnāt try harder to save her and regrets at making her hold on because I didnāt know the worst of it. And regrets that I didnāt do even more to make her happy and enriched in the time we had. I just want to hug her again.
Taleya@aussie.zone āØ1ā© āØmonthā© ago
melbaboutown@aussie.zone āØ1ā© āØmonthā© ago
Youāre right. I did what was best for her and will regret anyway
Taleya@aussie.zone āØ1ā© āØmonthā© ago
You did your best and both of you still got your life together taken away. And thatās shit. Itās incredibly shit.
Youāre allowed to be upset about that. Youāre allowed to be angry. But donāt you ever feel guilty or regret putting up one hell of a fight.
melbaboutown@aussie.zone āØ1ā© āØmonthā© ago
It fucking sucks š«©
Bottom_racer@aussie.zone āØ1ā© āØmonthā© ago
You really did the best you or anyone could Melba. Please donāt second guess that.
Seagoon_@aussie.zone āØ1ā© āØmonthā© ago
I agree with Bottom_racer
and everyone gets a pass because of covid, I think the whole world has had ptsd
and weāve all had to do our best thru trying circumstances
you are the best
so many hugs
melbaboutown@aussie.zone āØ1ā© āØmonthā© ago
Thanks Seagoon
melbaboutown@aussie.zone āØ1ā© āØmonthā© ago
Thanks man :(