Comment on Day 576 of posting a Daily Screenshot from the games I've been playing
ameancow@lemmy.world 4 days ago
The shot reminded me of Elder Scrolls Online at first, and I had that very real PTSD.
When I was going through the worst part of my life, losing everything, burying my family and pets, closing down my business and having my home foreclosed due to family medical issues, I played Elder Scrolls for a couple years for no other reason than to spend time with someone I cared about. I hated the game, it was exciting for the first couple hours until I realized how far it deviated from the actual franchise and how limited the gameplay really was, how everything was just a funnel towards premium content and skins.
I drank like a fish and laid in trash watching my life fall apart as I sat in Elder Scrolls listening to people chatter and watching them duel, because I didn’t want to be alone because I didn’t trust myself to be alone.
I did start over and everything is a lot better now, but holy shit, that game ruined Morrowind, Skyrim and the entire game world for me.
MyNameIsAtticus@lemmy.world 4 days ago
I’m glad you’re doing better! I notice it’s a reoccurring theme for people to go through stuff like that with MMOs.
My best friend went through the same thing with ESO and FFXIV because he felt alone and wanted to connect with people. He had spent roughly 400$ on FFXIV subscriptions alone until he got better, so I know how rough it can be.
But yeah, I have mixed feelings on ESO, and FFXIV while we’re on the subject. I had fun, but damn with how much money they try to siphon from the player it makes me not want to touch them and kind of cheapens the experience for me
ameancow@lemmy.world 4 days ago
Someone said it best describing Destiny 2, that it’s a perpetual feeling of building towards something that’s always just around the corner, but when you get around that corner, it’s just more grinding and pushing premium content, just around the corner. It’s gonna huge bro, I promise. Big stuff coming. Just ahead, just buy one more season bro.
I think we all have our check-out bottom we will fall to when life hurts too much, some people will just rot in bed and some will watch old movies and some will camp in the woods. We have breaking points in life, and sometimes an online game where people seem to be having normal lives just feels like being someone still connected to the world. When I was little and my parents would go on week-long drug benders and spend the whole time screaming at each other, I would check out into comics and books, so it’s probably where I learned how to do it inadvertently.