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Passerby6497@lemmy.world 1 day agoEdit: and the evidence that you’re still here would happily indicate that you don’t truly mean it. So could you all please just cut it out?
Spoken like someone who has never had to deal with those thoughts.
wizardbeard@lemmy.dbzer0.com 1 day ago
Nice baseless assumption fuckboy.
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For those unfamiliar, those are anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds. Mine.
I’ve already spouted my personal psychological issues across other comments. I’m so sorry that I didn’t take the time to qualify my statement with an essay about my personal bullshit here.
I’m truly sorry about what you’re going through. If you feel that way then you aren’t getting the help you need. Notably, you also already have your clear reason not to end it. You should focus on that and work to build more reasons not to instead of getting pissy at an internet stranger for calling people out on glorification of suicide.
To put this as simple as fucking possible, in incredibly vague and simplistic terms (that are still true by personal fucking experience)
Repeated self talk about how you don’t want to be alive and the like isn’t going to help you or anyone else who is having these feelings. It reinforces those thought patterns that you clearly already understand are not healthy.
Being able to identify when you are having those disordered thoughts and doing your best to turn away from them helps reinforce against those patterns. It gets easier over time.
Posting suicidal ideation content into the void of the internet does not ultimately help you or others with handling or moving past those feelings
There is value in knowing you’re not alone in your feelings, and humor reaches farther than other means, sure. But the internet as a whole is clearly far past that point, and I’m getting increasingly more exhausted sitting by and watching this shit be normalized.
I’ve been living with ADHD my whole life (close to 35 years now). Depression (officially) for around 15. Anxiety for around a decade.
There’s at least a five year span of my life that effectively isn’t there. There’s still a small voice in the back of my head afraid I’ll either wake up one morning and be back there, or I’ll come back to my senses and find that the past decade has been all delusion as my car is plummeting off the local bridge or into oncoming traffic lanes from what was a constant battle every day not to just fucking do it.
I have a mental list of various options for how I’d do it if it came to it, backed by actual fucking research. I did back then too, and was fucked up enough to not care anymore about the hurt to those around me or the potential pain to myself from doing it in a dumb as hell way like a traffic accident. Good way to end up still alive but crippled physically and financially for the rest of your life.
Anyway.
One of the hardest things to accept is that there is some logic and soundness to the dumbasses saying “have you just tried not being x?”.
It’s not that simple, true. People who don’t have these issues will never understand, true. It will be some of the most unrewarding, soul draining shit you’ve ever attempted, and there’s no shame if you can’t get there yet or if you can’t do it on your own.
But here’s the worst part: they aren’t entirely wrong.
You build your healthy coping mechanisms and your psychological toolkit to fight against this shit through constant neverending effort to work against the bad internal shit. The more you work against it, the stronger those tools get. Eventually, like repeated practice of martial arts or musical instruments over years, the things that took concious effort will begin to become unconcious. The equivalent of mental muscle memory, for lack of a phrase for it that doesn’t sound silly.
You’ll stumble. You’ll fail. You’ll have to start back over from what feels like (and may actually be) square one. But that work against it is ultimately the core of any way you’re going to be able to keep moving forward.
It will never be as simple as “just don’t be sad, lol”, but some aspect of your journey out of it will have to come from personal effort to not be what you are today.
On top of all that?
This isn’t even an actually funny joke about not wanting to exist anymore. “haha, I don’t want to live anymore even though they do! Rofl lmao.”
Boo! Get some better material.
Early_Insurance_3334@lemmy.ca 1 day ago
THIS IS A SHIT POSTING SUB!
wizardbeard@lemmy.dbzer0.com 1 day ago
Suicidal ideation isn’t a joke, fuckface.
Honytawk@lemmy.zip 23 hours ago
It is used as a joke though. The entire internet is filled with them.
If you want them to be taken seriously, they shouldn’t be posted as a shitpost
Passerby6497@lemmy.world 1 day ago
Ok
wizardbeard@lemmy.dbzer0.com 1 day ago
Then you do, in fact, want to be here. So fuck off with the bullshit and accept that you’ve decided you’re here for the ride.
Passerby6497@lemmy.world 1 day ago
I hope you know that you’re no better than the people who tell us to ‘just stop being sad’ or ‘depression isn’t that bad, I get sad sometimes and just get over it’. I would hope you’re self aware enough to see how shitty you come across, but I won’t hold my breath.
Man, this is why I hate people like you. Because you have to put your own feelings into someone else and tell them how they feel. You don’t know shit about turds.
How about you fuck off yourself? Just because I don’t want to hurt someone by my actions, that doesn’t mean I want to be here, and saying that is so fucking ignorant and exactly why I said what I said the first time. You may be on similar meds as I am, but you can go fuck yourself with a rusty drill if you think that means you know what I’m going through or how I feel.
Same for this. You don’t know me, what I’m doing or what I’m going through. Just because I don’t want to be alive doesn’t mean I’m wallowing in my thinking or not trying to move past it. I don’t control my thoughts, only my actions. Maybe you need to take that to heart and shut the fuck up about what you don’t know.
But I will take part of your advice and not wallow in the stupid thoughts of idiots speaking out of their ass. Good day.