I think you made a common mistake. See, you don’t just bury the darkness, you need to also disossiate from reality. Even if you internally suffer accidental contact with the void, it doesn’t make it all the way out to become a physical expression.
This way, you can disconnect your outward behaviour from you active thinking, so that even if you mentally implode, no-one can tell!
Neat, huh?
(This is horrible advice, do not attempt. Never hide this level of anguish with loved ones. Potentially useful in professional settings, but still harmful.)
Jokes on you, I do exactly this but still tell everyone I meet exactly how depressed I am (the answer is very) and why. I have very good reasons and data to back it up. I explain it very calmly.
No one really gives a shit. Either they don’t believe me or they think I’m exaggerating. Or they believe me a bit and then burn it from their memory the second I leave their sight. When I say there have been just a few days in my life where I did not ACTIVELY long for death, they don’t seem to really understand me.
I mean, most people haven’t experienced a single day of existence where they’d have rather… Not.
And it follows they have no concept of how someone can still function if they feel that way. Intuitively, you’d think those two things are mutually exclusive.
So, probably also wierd how easy it is to continue to go through the motions even as there is less than nothing inside.
I hope the “days I want to be alive/days I want to not exist”-ratio improves for you.
ThatWeirdGuy1001@lemmy.world 2 months ago
It’s still so jarring every time though
MentalEdge@sopuli.xyz 2 months ago
I think you made a common mistake. See, you don’t just bury the darkness, you need to also disossiate from reality. Even if you internally suffer accidental contact with the void, it doesn’t make it all the way out to become a physical expression.
This way, you can disconnect your outward behaviour from you active thinking, so that even if you mentally implode, no-one can tell!
Neat, huh?
(This is horrible advice, do not attempt. Never hide this level of anguish with loved ones. Potentially useful in professional settings, but still harmful.)
ThatWeirdGuy1001@lemmy.world 2 months ago
Laughs hysterically in harmful coping mechanisms
I don’t know what you’re referring to 😊
HasturInYellow@lemmy.world 2 months ago
Jokes on you, I do exactly this but still tell everyone I meet exactly how depressed I am (the answer is very) and why. I have very good reasons and data to back it up. I explain it very calmly.
No one really gives a shit. Either they don’t believe me or they think I’m exaggerating. Or they believe me a bit and then burn it from their memory the second I leave their sight. When I say there have been just a few days in my life where I did not ACTIVELY long for death, they don’t seem to really understand me.
So weird.
MentalEdge@sopuli.xyz 2 months ago
I mean, most people haven’t experienced a single day of existence where they’d have rather… Not.
And it follows they have no concept of how someone can still function if they feel that way. Intuitively, you’d think those two things are mutually exclusive.
So, probably also wierd how easy it is to continue to go through the motions even as there is less than nothing inside.
I hope the “days I want to be alive/days I want to not exist”-ratio improves for you.
Passerby6497@lemmy.world 2 months ago
Eh, depends. My therapist says it can be useful in the moment, but yeah, something we’re working on.
MentalEdge@sopuli.xyz 2 months ago
Oh it’s plenty useful. Like I mention, at work with people who have no business knowing whats going on in your head it can be great.
But it’s not good for you.