i am literally going in-patient on Monday and then entering a 90-day mental health residential community because i am currently unable to function. i recently lost my job and even had the FBI show up at my house. i am spiraling, i am going fucking insane with rage and fear. i’m going to lose my 13 year relationship if i don’t learn some new coping skills and stabilize myself.

…and i’m pissed. my mental illnesses have been severely exacerbated by the rise of fascism in America. how the fuck am i not supposed feel threatened? i am LGBT, i am an outspoken communist—i’m a large part of what this administration just labeled as an enemy and a terrorist. of course i am falling apart and feeling the need to “get them” before they get me.