I think it’s more of a book reference to his fight with bonzo, who was bullying ender. Ender was a few years younger and knew he had to win the fight “permanently,” so it’s inferred that he knew what he was doing.
Iirc, the officials told ender that bonzo was sent home, which was surprising since ender thought he killed bonzo. In reality, he did actually kill bonzo and was lied to about it.
moody@lemmings.world 1 year ago
He also didn’t know he was killing the kid at the beginning on the story either, but he definitely meant to make sure that he wouldn’t be bullying anyone anymore.