I’m feeling so frustrated at how disability and other environmental barriers make hobbies so difficult, especially outdoorsy ones. Before things got like this I used to enjoy forest walks, gardening, tai chi (on top of the solitary indoor stuff which is now getting worn thin). You get the picture. It leads to being terminally online which wouldn’t be so bad in the circumstances… but there seems to be a massive generational divide and culture shifts that make it the opposite of good. And yeah, the internet always had a shittiness to it but there were at least some norms around managing it then (like ‘don’t feed the trolls’ and ‘not your personal army’ and ‘don’t like don’t read’) and I’m finding the behaviour to be ruder and more maladaptive now. The users are inappropriately young and somehow more obnoxious than they used to be. (And yes, this is an expected function of getting older, but I have always hated kids and teens. I’ve been a cranky old person since I was 8 years old. This crop just have managed to worsen or invent new bad behaviours. Become more invasive. Social media is getting very toxic.) The people I actually talk to are drifting away. I really feel like all of the online platforms except this one are just a bad fit for me, and I feel like the area I live in is also pretty incompatible for me. Plus I’m in pain all the damn time. -_- Quality of life is pretty low right now. I have things I’d do but I’m not up to it. Not really workable until I get my health managed and possibly move out of my current shithole. Which may never happen.