ProxyZeus
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- Comment on Is the Video Download Helper companion app safe on Firefox? 2 months ago:
I mean it has worked fine for me on Linux for years
- Comment on Have you ever realized just how broken you are? 3 months ago:
I have had a similar expierence with this, my mother would mostly ignore my input if I didn’t or did want to do something or if I knew she was wrong she would still ignore me and then find out she was wrong and rarely acknowledge I was right.
I never thought about this affecting me until I was watching an interview with a psychologist about 2 years ago and I really resonated with part of it but it never left my mind. Recently I rewatched it and part a different part of it resonated deeper when the guy talked about disagreeing with his parents even though they thought they were right and they listened… I was unsure of what exactly that part was resonating with so I listened to it again. I decided to mix up drink shake mixture but I couldn’t bring myself to do it for some reason I was just locked up about making the drink for like 10 min even though I know I wanted to make the drink. While trying to get myself to do it.
I noticed that there were internal voices that sounded different one was saying
do I want to go thought the effort to clean the shaker though
The other one though was saying
do you even want the drink
AND THEN IT HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK–THE 2ND WAS MY MOTHERS VOICE
Then I was hit with and started processing all the anger, sadness, and anxiety that I felt and didn’t realize I had pent up because of her ignoring me and brushing me off.
Its a tough thing to process and work through, I still am, but I feel better as a person now and more in control of my actions after the realization.
If I had to recommend anything to help, I would say let yourself feel those feelings you were repressing let them out in safe manners like writing down how you feel about stuff or hell I just let myself cry for like an hour after the dam burst it made me feel a lot better. Of course a therapist could help you too but the above two can help otherwise.
Also HealthyGamerGG is a really good YouTube channel with a lot of resources about mental health, it’s where the interview I was watching happened.
I wish you the best on your journey
- Comment on Elden Ring – Patch Notes Version 1.13 3 months ago:
I turned down my graphics settings so part 2 would be easier to interpret lol
- Comment on Elden Ring – Patch Notes Version 1.13 3 months ago:
My mimic tear got his one braincell fixed, let’s goo!
- Comment on Steam Is Run By Fewer Than 80 Staff, Lawsuit Docs Reveal 4 months ago:
They also maintain file hosting for saves, game versions and a lot of useful apis for games partner.steamgames.com/doc/features
- Comment on Steam Is Run By Fewer Than 80 Staff, Lawsuit Docs Reveal 4 months ago:
Love to refactor, the more I watch the Mesa graphics drivers and the employees valve hired that work on it the more I believe it
- Comment on Microsoft may lose $120 million due to the Overwatch League shutdown 1 year ago:
Hopefully Microsoft allows for a more community based competitive scene to grow
- Comment on Gamedev and linux 1 year ago:
All users are basically QA after QA in any type of product
- Comment on Is there an alternative to "motherfucker" that people would actually use? 1 year ago:
Nailed it on the head
- Comment on Switch 2 would arrive in the second half of 2024 and development kits are already out 1 year ago:
DS->DS Lite->DSi->DSi XL->3DS->3DS XL->New 3DS XL I think it tracks perfectly