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• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Handy tip⁩ ⁨⁨4⁩ ⁨days⁩ ago⁩:

  i hate that i read this in his voice and it was flawless. 0/10, perfection.

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Can a puzzle with missing pieces be considered complete?⁩ ⁨⁨5⁩ ⁨days⁩ ago⁩:

  Thank you sincerely for the comment you posted initially! Not much these days causes the gears in my brain to stutter and seize and then restart the way the words you posted did. It’s also fairly rare that my brain holds shape long enough for me to get to chase down a thought the way I did. It was a real treat.

  And please don’t apologize for the rant! Seeing your understanding and musings about this is fascinating too. You are appreciated all around.

  Be well, internet stranger! Until never, maybe. :) May your life bring you satisfaction.

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Can a puzzle with missing pieces be considered complete?⁩ ⁨⁨6⁩ ⁨days⁩ ago⁩:

  for me… it would be incredibly difficult to intentionally not finish the puzzle.  i have bought secondhand puzzles in the past and they have had missing pieces, and i accepted the task as complete because i did. it have the remaining pieces.  *that* felt fine.

  but deciding not to complete the puzzle if i had all of the pieces?  that feels like it would be very difficult.

  and i can’t quite put my finger on why.  why does finishing the puzzle bring satisfaction?  what is it about that specific action?  is it because it is culmination?  if it’s because of the finality of it, the ‘it is finished,’ does that mean that the rest of the activity had less value?  or that the only value it had was as part of an effort which was being built upon towards the summit of the last piece’s placement?

  this person argues that finishing tasks is a special expectation, and i can agree with them there at least.  a large part of the desire to finish things is in the ‘proving that it can be done and that [i] am capable of doing this thing and thus worthy of esteem.’

  so is that it?  is that why i would have a hard time not finishing the puzzle??

  maybe it is because i am reflecting internally the external values i was raised with and am surrounded by?  reifying structures around me?

  or maybe it is just that it would feel disrespectful to not finish it?  that the puzzle ‘deserves’ finishing?

  i finished many puzzles with missing pieces, and for each of them i fabricated the missing pieces- usually from cardboard and pens, or from a piece of the box.  i did it mostly because the hole would distract from the art.  the lack of pieces didn’t bother me, because i was letting that be a meditative practice.  ‘this is imperfect, but it exists and still brings joy.’

  but could i bring myself to *cause* that imperfection, when the actual ‘proper’ completion would actually be possible?  hmmm. 🤔

  there’s a relation to disability here that i am not clever enough to elucidate unfortunately.  it is just outside of my grasp. i’ll have to sit with it for a while.

  probably my brain won’t maintain this shape long enough for me to be able to.  but that’s a puzzle missing a piece of of the box, so i won’t mourn it.  i knew what we were when i started this train of thought.

  ah.  that’s part of it, i think. emergency of disability here being the discovery of one’s self ‘lacking a piece,’ when the expectation was that all pieces would be there at the outset.  that is why there is a sadness.

  so if i were to sit here with a complete puzzle, considering it *not* as a complete puzzle but as one which was never destined *to* be completed- thinking of it as one that was *created* to be 99%-ed and have its final piece set aside, i think i could make peace with it.

  bizarre train of thought.  if you bought a mug and then shattered it, the normal course of action would be to be frustrated or sad.  because mugs are ‘meant’ to be drunk from.  but if the mug was created and destined not to be drunk from but to be broken?  different reaction.  i imagine there would be satisfaction and a sense of completion when it shatters.

  so what the hell determines the actual destiny of a thing?  the actual purpose?

  i guess that digs to something deeper still, right?  how meaning is created and what meaning even fucking is.  blah.

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Marriage⁩ ⁨⁨1⁩ ⁨week⁩ ago⁩:

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• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Do not repost this image⁩ ⁨⁨2⁩ ⁨weeks⁩ ago⁩:

  screencapped your screencap

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• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Victorious in Hell, which is Heaven to a Cenobite like me⁩ ⁨⁨1⁩ ⁨month⁩ ago⁩:

  hugs, fren. i hope you are able to get your meds and that things calm down enough for you to breathe. you deserve that.

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Get your priorities in order⁩ ⁨⁨4⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

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• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨We're just friends!⁩ ⁨⁨4⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

  Get you a guy with a tracksuit and corn visor.

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Tthe happiest meal!⁩ ⁨⁨5⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

  cursed

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• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨[Video] Corn% worth 7 minutes of your life.⁩ ⁨⁨5⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

  ba da bum bum dadada! tsewww.

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Damn⁩ ⁨⁨5⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

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• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨[deleted]⁩ ⁨⁨5⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

  I have used emdash for years and it is so frustrating that this particular writing quirk has been picked up by bullshit LLMs. Leave my weird habits alone D;

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨I ate: Arby's Steak Nuggets⁩ ⁨⁨7⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

  This was a fantastic write up and a joy to read. Thank you so much for posting! You have made me curious about the gyro now for sure, though I will likely skip the steak nuggets.

  Every bit of your description made me smile. The included rant about fries was a delight.

  I hope you get paid for your writing at some point, if this is a thing you do regularly in some capacity. I feel like you merit it.

  Cheers!

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨another TUI⁩ ⁨⁨7⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

  I’m sorry, excuse me? ‘Purge’ us? What the absolute fuck.

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Decided to dig a big hole⁩ ⁨⁨8⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

  quality hole

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Get up, soldier⁩ ⁨⁨8⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

  rip chadwick bozeman

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Marshmallow Test⁩ ⁨⁨1⁩ ⁨year⁩ ago⁩:

  sometimes i think about that kid in the experiment who was sat down and told to wait some time before eating the sweetness put in front of him

  that his patience would bring a reward

  and i think about how they laughed when he didn’t succeed in waiting and instead crammed the entire gummy bear into his mouth the second they left

  looking so guilty afterward

  the way they gloated and collected data and prognosticated about his future job prospects and potential success- certainly not as good as those who waited, they said

  it was something about self-control

  i know all too well that when he got home there were probably no sweets or if there were, they were there for a moment only before being snatched away by either cruel hands or circumstance no guarantee that promises meant anything, much less that they were kept.

  if it had been me in that chair i’d have eaten it too.

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨[deleted]⁩ ⁨⁨1⁩ ⁨year⁩ ago⁩:

  whew boy, this needs some self reflection from the person who posted it and anyone who upvoted.

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Definitely didn't waste half an hour making this⁩ ⁨⁨1⁩ ⁨year⁩ ago⁩:

  it‘s going to be a very long list, lol

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Definitely didn't waste half an hour making this⁩ ⁨⁨1⁩ ⁨year⁩ ago⁩:
  5. ole reliable
• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Yall guess who showed up in my dms⁩ ⁨⁨1⁩ ⁨year⁩ ago⁩:

  me too. i feel so official now, blessed by the grace of fediverse chic