I’m so sorry that this happened to you.

If you will please entertain my question?

When you say “I didn’t understand what they were” what did you think you were taking?

I’m grateful that you can recognize that your reactions were not necessarily due to what you took but external factors.

I personally believe this PTSD could be permanently fixed by trying again in a safe place with people you trust. I am happy to answer any questions you may have publicly or privately, or just talk. I’m not a qualified expert, I’ve just taken a fucking shit ton of mushrooms over the years.