I’m trying to find things to enjoy and am getting so excited about trying new things in life, like new foods, going to a different uni next year, travelling, working full-time more or less permanently. But at the same time, nothing excites me? It’s strange.

I have a trial drums lesson organised, doing a fitness challenge, planning a social thing once a week, and going to start therapy in a couple of days. All this effort to work on myself just feels a bit futile. I know these things are going to be good for me, yet part of me is not convinced.

Maybe I just have to get through things and then they will become enjoyable. What a weird state to be in.