to ask questions even while anxious is something to be commended on especially since you are unsure about what the right choices could be

I think it’s actually brave to ask for help especially in difficult situations such as the one you’re in

“The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.” - Marcus Aurelius

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Should I go back and try to change society or should I just leave for good?

This brings back memories from a well known anime called Code Geass where 2 of the characters have a debate on whether change can either be born from within the system or if it must be made externally

• Lelouch vs Suzaku

Personally I’d say it’s external but I don’t know if this is closest to the truth of the perfect solution

From recent historical records like Hong Kong and Ukraine vs Russia

• brain drain is a real thing and it seems that to continue living under oppression and subjugation is probably the worst if not wrong decision as you’d be unintentionally sacrificing yourself for a corrupt authority

change is probably a mix of both internal and external

• but to continue living in an state of eroding democracy might be more detrimental than benefical to most
• as I’m writing this, I find it funny that this could be said the same for the fediverse here