I spent a bit of time going through your post history to get an understanding of your background

In short I think your life experiences mean you’ve lost all trust in men. Not just your direct experiences but what you’ve observed in others.

As a result you enter each interaction assuming the worst. Every male social worker you engage with will confirm this pattern because that’s what you’re looking for. The - ah fuck here we go again - feeling.

For them, and I don’t expect you to have empathy for them, this is what they live - the outcomes of other mens behaviours. But - they were there and they tried. That is something.

You have changed quite a lot of your original post.