I have ADHD, and probably some minor form or Autism. (Just too old for it to be called that back in the day). Learn to cope with it. It’s what makes you different, but like I said, figure out what is a fulfilling life to you first, and then try to strive towards it.

And I don’t mean this as a negative but consider therapy if you can find a way to do it. It sounds like you might need to talk to someone about this and that can be a great help. That can take time too, it took my daughter 3-4 therapists and almost a year to find the right person for her and it’s definitely helped her.