Normal people, in principle, do not live in this country.

They do, it's just that like you they've learnt to be careful about what they say, and to only look out for themselves out of hard experience. Or they once cared, but life ground them down, so they sought escape in alcohol or whatever.

Not that this helps, but maybe it'll help you feel less lonely, when someone says something stupid. They may simply be pretending to be an idiot.

Obviously, this is by design. If people were open about being unhappy about their country, this would threaten the government.

I can't help you with work, but reading and podcasts can be a great help when you don't have access to mental health services.