I would like to know who all these “most people” are and what experience they speak from. In my experience as a former frequent flyer in the female psych ward, most suicidal people I’ve met do care a lot about other people, but their depression makes them convinced that killing themselves would have no or even positive impact on their loved ones in the long run.
Speaking from experience, it can honestly feel like suicide would be a kindness, like your pain is so big you’re certain it affects everyone around you and your mere existence (and your mental unhealth) is a burden. When that is your minds truth, taking yourself out would relieve others from your pain, and even though it’s frightening (and maybe the short period surrounding your death would be hard on them but not as hard as living with you), it’s the right thing to do for the sake of your loved ones.
Obviously it’s bullshit to a healthy mind, but depression is such a mind-altering disorder that you can’t distinct between reasonable and affected thoughts. I can barely grasp how it felt and what I believed to be true, now that I’m better.
And to answer your original question: most other the time when I didn’t attempt suicide it was because my plan of action would lead to a horrific mess for whoever found me/had to clean it up, or because there was a risk someone I knew would be the one to find me, or risk of someone witnessing/causing my death which would be traumatic for even a stranger.
originalucifer@moist.catsweat.com 1 day ago
i would struggle to use the words 'most people' in such a context.. i doubt you have more than anecdotal evidence.