actually that’s called “passive suicidal ideation” and is in fact exactly what it sounds like:

a kind of “if this happens to kill me, oh well, at least it’s over.” kind of mindset and it is an earlier stage in the process of suicide.

quick copy paste from the wiki:

On suicide risk scales, the range of suicidal ideation varies from fleeting thoughts to detailed planning. Passive suicidal ideation is thinking about not wanting to live or imagining being dead. Active suicidal ideation involves preparation to kill oneself or forming a plan to do so.