It’s not just that. I have been powering through so many major things overlapping for so many years now (didn’t really post about them) and people just kept dying around me. I’m beyond burned out. Just been endlessly in crisis and working overtime to manage everything and not even getting a moment to breathe before the next one starts.

I’m exhausted and have barely started grieving Melbcat but am now in yet another situation where I’ll have to work diligently and consistently for an extended time and experience setbacks… I just don’t think I can do it. And I don’t think I can commit to another pet again so soon.

It’s so painful because I do care about this goofy little goober and wish I could keep him. But I don’t think I can do it because I am breaking. And that’s another loss. At this point it feels like being punished for caring.