That’s your judgement of your food. It’s natural for you to have a number of biases to favor your own cooking. Most notably the 4 hours of effort it takes you.

But home cooking isn’t generally that. It’s the 20-40min one puts in right after getting home from work. Comparing your most intensive 4h hours of effort against something a restaurant cook does absent mindedly isn’t really a comparison. If they put in your effort you wouldn’t have a chance.