I don’t know how much I should be sharing for privacy reasons but hopefully I don’t overstep and someone finds out who and where I am. First day on placement was today and I’m in awe at how respectful and rule-abiding these kids are. Most people are nice. Most of the kids see the value in school, and from what I have seen, most bring the required materials to class! They have well-established routines and would never swear at teachers or yell out in class like in my last school. I don’t have to feel so anxious about behaviour management anymore. The difference is night and day. I feel guilty for being in such a nice school culture. There is a school refusal crisis going on at the moment, and I feel like I would make more of a difference by working with at-risk kids. However, I don’t know if doing school in the way the prim and proper school I’m at would work for those sorts of kids. When the school culture is prim and proper, and everyone follows those rules, it might incentivise others to do so as well? I think first and foremost, kids need safe adults in their lives who respect them for who they are, and I could be one of those adults. Maybe I just want to be a parent or something. So I am still rethinking the career path. I just want to leave the world in a better place than how I found it.