Don’t be so hard on yourself. It is a bit cringy but who cares? It’s a game where you basically just play against yourself for fun. You fill out your own score card and you can write down any number you want without affecting anyone else in any real way. I’d find someone getting upset at your cheating at golf when you were a kid even more cringy.

When I was a kid, I played t-ball one year. My only memory from it was one time I was on defense but was more interested in drawing in the sand than paying attention to the game.

Or when I was a bit older, I was playing softball (parenta really wanted me to be interested in some baaeball variant I guess). I was on 2nd base and the pitcher missed catching a throw from the catcher and it rolled towards me. Instead of stealing 3rd, I stepped off the base and stopped the ball with my foot to be helpful. Lol the 3rd base coach wasn’t impressed. Technically I should have been out, but it was just a recreational game so they let it slide. I was really embarrassed at the time and would remember that moment for years with regret. But eventually I realized it didn’t matter in the slightest bit and I can laugh at how much of a dork I was.

Because the reality is all kids are dorks and doing stupid shit is a part of growing up and learning to be a bit less of a dork going forward.