I meant masturbation for men means touching male genitalia. You’re not bothered by that.

I had a few fat experiences as a teenager. I had fun, but I never dreamed of it, unlike with girls. Even a whiff of some girly sweat mixed with like the intoxicating smell of some girls hair could make me want off to them for days.

But the gay experiences were more like “I wonder what a blowjob feels like”. Zero sexual innuendo or romance or lust or infatuation or anything.

Just two friends getting each other off for a novel experience.

Wasn’t really my thing. But I’m fairly confident I’m more confident I’m not gay than most guys, having explored that aspect and found it to really not be my thing.

Did the same with most drugs as well. Tried em all in my youth, but now I only use weed and alcohol.