TokenEffort
@TokenEffort@sh.itjust.works
Bernadette, she/her, tired of everything, not a lostwave enthusiast, Nintendo fan, dog person, and I will forever be better off never existing and when that time comes I will finally be free from the past that killed me over a decade ago. Now I wait for death as an empty shell of who I used to be!
- Comment on Should parents be allowed to euthanize their children if they have a diagnosis that just isn't worth dealing with? 2 days ago:
If it weren’t illegal, and if he wasn’t dead already 🎉 then I’d do exactly that. Unfortunately his grave is in another state otherwise I’d take advantage of the new portapotty.
- Comment on Should parents be allowed to euthanize their children if they have a diagnosis that just isn't worth dealing with? 3 days ago:
Even though I was misdiagnosed, I would have benefited from being “wrongfully” euthanized than to live as the scum beneath my family’s shoes, having to learn basic hygiene and just about everything else on my own (while having to hide it from family since trying to be clean and mature is funny), and being in a “school” that educated me with YouTube videos while teaching me that my comfort doesn’t matter and to let anyone do whatever they want to me regardless of whether I like it or not. Fighting off a creepy stalker who copied everything I did and cornered me in the restroom made me the problem. She’s not a creep, I just don’t like. But letting another kid touch and try to rape me without reporting it (because why would someone care about something you Just Don’t Like) also made me the problem.
To this day I just tell everyone I don’t remember anything before Three Houses came out. I barely do anyway. I have no childhood memories, no family, no childhood friends, no pictures, nothing. Because while everyone else got to navigate their neighborhood and actually grow as children and teenagers, I sat on a short bus for 2 hours, in the same desk for 7 hours, then on the short bus for another 2.5 hours to go lie in bed and be out of sight like a good kid. I should have just died.
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- Comment on Do dogs and cats have dominant front paws? 4 days ago:
They probably do.
- Comment on Do you wish that you could recycle games? 6 days ago:
That would be an awesome feature but finance bros will find a way to abuse it in milliseconds.
- Comment on Is it wrong to not have a disabled child solely to avoid forcing the child to suffer their whole life? 1 week ago:
I have a higher chance of birthing a developmentally disabled child if I actually do get pregnant. Is it wrong to be 100% against birthing my own child solely because of this.? I was misdiagnosed and was in an aba institution for 10 years, and dehumanized and alienated by family the whole time. When I got to a real high school, I was treated like an infant or a wild bear, nothing in between. I wholeheartedly believe that regardless of whatever I accomplish in my life, I would have been much better off never born, euthanized, or murdered.
I don’t want to force this experience on anyone else if I can prevent it from happening. It’s not just the abuse in the aba institutions but treatment literally everywhere. In high school everyone had brand name clothes, apple technology, brand headphones, etc. No one cared. I had off brand clothes, cheap headphones, a Microsoft Surface and a Galaxy phone, and was treated like a rich scumbag, like I was Brian Thompson’s privileged daughter who had everything because her dad made everyone suffer. Literally not having brand name clothes was status against everyone else. I couldn’t afford them even if I did want to wear clothes advertising the store it came from. I never understood the appeal of that. But everyone saw somebody below them with some nice things, and even worse, preferences.
Being a joke to the people who “love” you, having all your “friends” be people school staff begged to talk to you so you don’t kill someone, and having the same disorder that made you less of a human be the reason why you accomplished something mundane like passing a class with a 60 grade is just not a life worth living. Watching everyone else get to be real humans with real happiness, real hobbies and interests, and real personalities while you need to hide everything about yourself is not a life worth living. There’s just no reason to live on the wrong side of society. I wish my mother had just aborted me when there were signs I wasn’t going to make it. I’m not making the same mistake.
- Comment on Would you do Onlyfans if needed the money? 1 week ago:
If you don’t enjoy it as a hobby, you won’t enjoy it as a business.
Do you enjoy taking nudes for fun? Go for it. If not, OF would be the worst “job” you’ve ever had, being just below roaming in train tracks looking for pennies.
Amazon hires anyone hiring.amazon.com
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- Comment on What advice would you give to your younger self? 1 week ago:
Bitcoin!!! Also change your name on your 18th birthday. No one will know unless you tell them. Amazon hires anyone. Work there, apply to a housing lottery, drop out of high school, be free. Get a GED if you really want to, with your name on it and not ugly ugliness.
- Comment on Are affordable apartments easy and cheap suicide prevention? 2 weeks ago:
I think of me but I also think of children in abusive families trans people who aren’t supported etc like cutting ties should be easy does the government know that we have several people willing to work and pay bills but can’t because the next step is too high?
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- Comment on We all need Seaman back in our lives! 2 weeks ago:
“Do you like yourself? I bet you like yourself twice a day” 🤣
- Submitted 3 weeks ago to [deleted] | 21 comments
- Comment on If God is all powerful and created human. How come God in endowed with human emotions? Shouldn't he or she be beyond that? 3 weeks ago:
Is there proof of a god like at all? Who tf is this mf. Also god caused your misfortune so asking him to help is counterproductive
- Comment on Would "suggest price" be a positive option for steam? 3 weeks ago:
Lmao
I guess a minimum order thingy could be set but then the lowest offer would be spammed.
Then games with the offer option would be seen as bad or cash-grabby.
So the option should be to get un-broke and pay full price or wait until winter.
- Comment on Would "suggest price" be a positive option for steam? 3 weeks ago:
I’m thinking of a “make offer” option where the customer can choose any price and the dev can manually choose to sell to that customer for that price or not.
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- Comment on So is it "It just works" or "Shit just works"? 4 weeks ago:
Yeah but… SJW means something else lmfao
- Comment on So is it "It just works" or "Shit just works"? 4 weeks ago:
Probably the former. I’ve seen it abbreviated as SJW, that’s unnecessary don’t do that. Am I old?
- Comment on The four horsemen of unmet financial expectations 4 weeks ago:
I would lose interest in the game entirely lol
- Comment on Hey is Sharing Luigi’s Manifesto on Social Media Actually "Glorifying Violence"? Because Reddit Said So 😭 5 weeks ago:
Reddit is a free advertising platform. I literally just now use it to secretly advertise side hustles.
- Comment on Am I the only one who feels uncomfortable about people making such big deal out of whether they're "black" or "white"? 1 month ago:
You’re not. I’m black and being a lemmy user is a bigger part of who I am than my skin color. I hate the othering and division.
- Comment on Will the price of Freeze Driers go down? (USA question) 1 month ago:
And freeze dried food is so expensive as well :/ cries in absolutely loving freeze dried fruits over regular ones
- Comment on I or my family does has a 3 year old mixed border collie. Is it to late to train him for something new? 1 month ago:
A 5 year old rescue doggy was taught to drive.
- Comment on What gives you hope to keep going? 1 month ago:
Honestly, the fear of screwing up suicide and destroying any opportunity of improving my life. It’s the only reason I’m alive today :/ if only I could just sign some papers, go to sleep, and never wake up.
So now I try so many money making schemes so I could rent an apartment without roommates who insist on doing chores in the dumbest way possible and blaming me for being unable to do anything other than housework after work.
- Comment on [deleted] 1 month ago:
Some asshole christian would end up saving me and then I’ll be permanently brain damaged.
- Comment on [deleted] 1 month ago:
Do they not already? I work out a lot to prevent myself from being a burden if I’m older
- Comment on How old is the average open source programmer? 1 month ago:
Yeah all that pizza and monster energy ain’t good for the body
- Comment on Why do people say "quote unquote something" and not "quote something unquote" ? 1 month ago:
Unrelated but until a month ago I’ve been saying “quote ON quote” until I saw it actually written 😂🤣
- Comment on Why does it seem most people, mainly conservatives, against Trans people? Unless I am wrong I never heard of one shooting up a school church or whatever. The ones I have met have been pretty cool. 1 month ago:
Off topic but it’s quite fucked that there are so many of these that we mix them up ooof