The worst about ideation for me is that a few days/weeks/months later, I’m almost always thinking “I was willing to do that? Because of XYZ? That would’ve been so fucking stupid!”
But in the moment your brain can just be like “topping yourself is clearly the only logical solution” and make you actually believe that shit.
It’s wild.
Sorry, I realise this is a bit off topic.
flambonkscious@sh.itjust.works 2 months ago
Funny the fictions we contrive for ourselves in our own heads.
There’s a real need to get ones world view/beliefs and the insecurities and inner critics in line in order to survive it seems.
That’s my latest conclusion, anyway. Distraction and drinking haven’t really helped. Shocking, I know…