I’ve been procrastinating sending off an important email for about three months now. I did 95% of the email (basically a structured essay with thorough citations) and got stat decs done to back it up, plus all the other supporting documents I need. Since then I’ve been having severe anxiety about finishing it every day and I haven’t touched it since. My cursed ADHD + anxiety combo has had me in a vicious cycle of not doing anything about it yet worrying still. I’m kept up at night with the dread of not finishing such a simple task, completely helpless to and at the mercy of my shoddy executive functioning.

Today, I’m breaking that cycle. I’m fucking going to proof read it and send it off even if it’s not “perfectly” done, it’s going to happen despite all my brain’s attempts at stopping it. I’m not happy with it, but it’s better late and imperfect than never and forgotten.