Comment on Is it weird that I enjoy imagining being a witness/victim of various tragedies?
SharkEatingBreakfast@sopuli.xyz 1 month ago
I am a sufferer of PTSD from various horrific traumas.
In short: yes. It’s weird. You should talk to a professional about it.
If I could take away these debilitating, paralyzing memories and responses my body has formed due to trauma, I would. It prevents me from living a normal life. Even have a note in my charts that lets medical professionals know that my massively elevated heart rate & blood pressure are a trauma/anxiety-response, not an underlying condition.
I guess maybe I’d view your desire as those kids on Tiktok that were mimicking/cosplaying mental illness, autism, & Tourettes syndrome, because they didn’t really understand the implications of suffering that a lot of folks who have those things go through.
Again: I’d strongly suggest seeing a professional about this.
A_Very_Big_Fan@lemmy.world 1 month ago
I don’t use TikTok but when I was in grade school I’d see other kids do this, and yeah it’s pretty cringe worthy. I think we’re on the same page there.
And I definitely don’t want PTSD. Sorry if it came across that way. But I think I see what you’re saying, and maybe I’m overestimating my mental fortitude. I guess I figured I’d be able to adequately process it if I realized afterwards that none of it was real.
It really stems from curiosity about the facts. But when that curiosity turns to morbid curiosity, a lot of my questions can’t be answered, so it seems to me that the only way to satiate that curiosity is to artificially experience the event first hand through something akin to Rick and Morty’s Roy game. But obviously that’s impossible, so all I have is my imagination.
SharkEatingBreakfast@sopuli.xyz 5 weeks ago
To be fair, I’m not at all offended by your desires! I understand that some folks have desires that are not necessarily rooted to reality. A fantasy, and that’s perfectly fine. Of course no one wants PTSD.
I think my concerns lie in that disconnect, though. Someone fantasizing about a threesome, meeting a historical figure, or a positive experience is something I’d understand. A desire to experience a tragedy? It’s a bit alarming. Even knowing that you’re just curious about the factual experience, the disassociation from the reality of human suffering paired with the events may cause a pause.
If you’re questioning yourself about your desires or people close to you have expressed concern over these thoughts, I’d say go to a professional and talk to someone. Otherwise, research into it. Explore these events, read,watch documentaries, interviews, and things like that.
The human mind is a weird thing. Not inherently bad– just weird. And it’s okay to explore that and think about things sometimes.