There’s something in the air today, my brain is rotting from boredom but I can’t tear myself off the couch to do any one of the 200 things I should be doing, including some reports for work.

I also can’t seem to find the motivation or even focus to play a video game, or get out the sewing machine (my favourite hobby).

I’ve been doom scrolling for 3 hours. Even though I know it’s making me feel worse, and it would take me 2 minutes to put a yoga video on and grab my mat, and I would feel better…

But apparently my brain just wants to sit here feeling guilty over all the things I should be doing but aren’t.

Its my day off so I’ve half convinced myself it’s okay to still be in my pyjamas at almost 4pm, and do nothing today, not even cook…but I’m not enjoying it, it’s not relaxing. I’m paralysed by the complete lack of motivation, and self imposed shame over doing nothing.

Im going to blame my ovaries for this unfocused, unmotivated mood.