Comment on Emotion-tracking AI on the job: Workers fear being watched – and misunderstood
intensely_human@lemm.ee 7 months agoIt is. The only reason I, an autistic man, can feed myself is because at least some jobs are defined in terms of measurable output. As soon as a human is making a personal judgment about me, they see that I’m like an alien acting human, and they find a way to fire me.
As an Uber driver, or any other job where success is not based on my boss’s judgment, I kick ass.
People have no fucking ability to stand by any of the “diversity” crap they preach. Like, maybe if diversity is so important to you, the fact that my voice sounds slightly tighter than usual one day shouldn’t result in me getting “Does not meet expectations” on my review.
Can you tell I’m a little bitter about this?
Now these kids are trying to organize Uber drivers into some kind of union.
Please no! I only succeed because it’s gig work, because it’s independent contractor stuff. As soon as my benefits become codified, it becomes an employee situation, and I get put under the neurotypical microscope again.
I cannot survive there, and I don’t want to live on state aid. Free money is not a substitute for work.
wathek@discuss.online 7 months ago
Have you tried working for a small-mid size company? I got the same vibe in big companies, now im in a company of 50 people and they just do not care how weird i am, no middle managers trying to justify their existence, as long as you’re doing your best you’re good. Like i’m sure that doesnt apply to all small companies, but i’d certainly keep it in mind for the future
intensely_human@lemm.ee 7 months ago
I have tried everything. Uber driver (ie job without a boss) is the only thing where I can succeed.
I’ve worked at companies of every size from 3 to 10,000. My personality creates friction no matter how hard I try to fit in.
I’ve done therapy, ayahuasca ceremonies, yoga, zen, men’s work, neurofeedback training, rolfing, adderall, anxiety meds, microdosing LSD and psilocybin, low carb, keto, raw diet, kung fu, alcohol, marijuana, polyphasic sleep, you name it.
I’m 41 years old. My ability to adapt is declining. There is one little puddle where this fish can swim, and these busybody kids are trying to turn it into a clone of every other dirt pile out there.
I want my independent contractor gig work to just stay as it is. I just want these “Let’s break some eggs and make a big omelet for everybody!” kids to slow their fucking roll and have a little humility instead of trying to save everyone by replacing dignified autonomy with a comfortable spot under Momma’s wing.
wathek@discuss.online 7 months ago
Hmm, well i can’t really speak to any of that. But for the greater good, unions are a good thing. I understand that it makes difficult for you though.
I’d throw the obvious stuff at you like, but it’s kinda hard to get an idea of what could possibly help without knowing you.
I do know that i’ve had to change my attitude a few times in life to get by though, i don’t think autism should be used as an excuse to not have to do the hard thing everyone has to do (but is harder for us).
Right now, the only advice i can give is to try to channel that resentment into motivation to improve yourself. Trying and failing is so much more valuable than just giving up and being angry about it.
But yeah, i do have it easier than most so maybe it’s not my place to say things like that. I do wish you the best though.
I do feel the same way about things being easier alone though. i would be much happier and productive doing my own thing, I have a ton of software projects i work on, somd even make a bit of money, but running business seems scary since my administration skills are shit and customers are acary.