Yeah when I complained about my treatment, they said it’s for my and others safety and to calm down

So they gaslit you in to complying with their ill treatment..
There is zero logic to the idea that treating mentally ill people like shit is actually helping them, and anyone trying to convince you otherwise either has a vested interest in maintaining the status quo and/or is just a run of the mill ableist who thinks we somehow deserve it for being such a pain in their asses.